busy bee but happy...

would love it if i were out shopping or having that movie marathon with my friends...

i already missed beyonce's concert because of my studio taping... i also failed to see Papa P's concert... mind and body have been perfectly abused to even enjoy time with myself and my sister... she'd understand, i'm very much sure...

but do i understand? not missing the concert, of course... it's about the amount of work that keeps loading up... i feel like a wheelbarrow carrying weight more than my wheels can handle... literally, at some points, my knees shook dahil sa pagod... and my muscles, nanginginig na... cried even because i'm just too damn exhausted...

grabe... di ko na mabilang... i've actually lost track of all that i have missed because of the responsibilities i have to assume... it just never changes... oh, wait... wrong... it does... it does... it gets heavier, tighter and more demanding... either i'm just too good at it or i'm plain dumb... such sucker for pain and pahirap... yeah, true to pruesadomasochism...

ilang gabi na ba akong uuwi na wala na akong lakas to even check my e-mail or my blog... and now that i have the time, i give in to the temptation of letting my steam off all over the net... huh! ok lang 'yan... breathe it out...

i saw this coming naman... hahaha! o cia sige na... universe... hear this... so what kung pagod?! so what kung bugbog ako ngayon sa trabaho?! so what kung bagsak na ako sa kama pag-uwi?! so what kung di na ako magkandatuto kung anong uunahin ko sa mga gagawin ko for the day?!

for the love of all that's beautiful... i thank God for giving me so much work... i know this is a blessing from you... truthfully, i am prepared for this naman... malaki naman ang reward sa dulo...

yeah, that's the funny thing.... i maybe wasted at the end of the day but even more inspired to accomplish everything... malapit na ang 21th... yes, i am very much looking forward to that... hehehe!

by the way, angel called two days ago... asked how i'm doing... and if i've eaten... how's my christmas daw... and i honestly answered with... "pagod pero happy"... hahaha! it's the sublime truth... angel asked why... nagmaganda naman ako... said "ewan ko.... basta..."

that of course was followed with a giggle... giggle likely to come from a lad with a 20 for waistline... hahaha!

then sabi ni angel... "angel, lapit na 21..."

and i replied... "yeah, i know... why? what about it angel?" and i was secretly smiling of course...

sabi ni angel... "ah ganun, sige... ganyan ha..." hahaha! sarap magpa-cute...

prue then made bawi... "angel... you know what... i've been wanting to tell you something..."

"what angel?" sez him...

my heart naturally let out music... "for everytime that i feel scared you won't be returning for the next few years, i die... it is because, now i know... i love you... and that if i ever stop trusting... i'll be a fool because i'm giving up on my own happiness... my life's better with you in it angel..."

those were exactly my words... i remember everything i said but i will also not forget what he said next... "kaya nga uwi ako angel... ayokong malungkot ka..."

okay... okay... pasencia na... i just really have to share it... pagpasenshahan na... tao lang.... nagmamahal... natutuwa... it isn't everyday that you are made to feel special...

hihihi!