joyful, joyful, joyful...

to old and new friends...
fellow bloggers...
acquaintances...
workmates...
kapitbahay...
kaaway...
katunggali...
ka-nguynguyan...
ka-chismisan..
ex-hubbies...
angel...
and crushes... hehehe!

entonces, sa lahat lahat ng taong dumaan sa aking buhay noon at nitong nagdaang taong ng 2007...

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new year's eve rambling...

the red wine's chilled... ready for toasting...

wands, luces, fountains, twisters, wheels and boxes of a hundred reports are just waiting to be lighted... seems to me alas-dos na, nagsisiindi pa kami ni dete since we had boxes and boxes of starmaker and dragon fireworks readied... huh! if only to mark the glorious passing of time... yeah... 2007 may not have been as magnificient as 2006 but definitely, we had our wonderful moments and blessings to be thankful for...

chelsea is celebrating new year with us... hahaha! it should have been my angel... and there goes my sad face... his wings nestled him in the land of beautiful sunrise while i'm back here in the shoe capital... that's just fine... nothing major... nothing love can't fix... yeah... that's it.. keep up the faith... mwah mwah mwah angel... three kisses for you.

the dinner was lovely but there's still media noche... was actually hoping that this time i'd be cooking not just for the family... but also for someone special... magpapasikat pa naman sana ako... hahaha... as angel would have preferred... pinoy cuisine...

pinapalambot ko na yung pangkare-kare... may 'tuwalya' and 'libro' din yun bukod sa 'taba-taba'... i've marinated the barbecue na din... dete, of course, is taking charge of the much manageable steaming of 'sugpo' and 'alimango'... mommmy will handle the rest... hindi ko na kaya yung iba eh... hehehe! but still, it would have been a different picture with angel around... day-dreamed of being with my hubby during the family's media noche... so so so saya nun!

anyway, it isn't the end of times... and ours still has a long way to go... yeah... i have faith in us... black and white dreams will have it's color in His will... He always listens naman.

whatever happened the past 12 months? haaaaaaaaay... sarap magrecall... even the not-so-nice memories... sarap balikan... teka... recollection will have to wait...

gotta run now and get my cake and dete's sambos... hmmm... i'll let nick drake sing for me muna... one time lang...

by the way... let me just say... I LOVE YOU ALL... MAHAL KO KAYONG LAHAT... !!! HEHEHE!

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BOUNTIFUL NEW YEAR OF

new titles for sexy films...

as usual, oficemate denmark strikes again with his antics... and we were again, as always, laughing like crazy over it... anyway, wanna hear his forecast of NEW TITLES FOR SEXY FILMS in the year 2008...

here's his list of titles...

ANG KATI NG HIGAD MO!

NAPAGOD ANG BUNGANGA SA LAKI NG TILAPIA

ULO PA LANG, ULAM NA

GISING NA SI ADAN

PASALAT NG PEKLAT

BUBUDBURAN KO NG NIYOG ANG MAINIT MONG PICHI-PICHI

LAWAYAN MO, BAKA MAUSOG

KAPAG GUMABI, BUMUBUKA ANG KABIBE

HUWAG MONG KAMAYIN BAKA MAPANIS

NANG BINUKLAT ANG AKLAT NI SABEL

DAMANG-DAMA KO ANG GALIT MO

NANG TUMAPON ANG NATA NI COCOY

bwahahaha! kabaliw talaga... so which movie would you like to star in? hahaha!

yuletide greeting...

MY SWEETEST YULETIDE EMBRACES, SMILES AND KISSES TO EVERYONE!!!

PAGPAPASALAMAT sa lahat ng kabigang minahal ako despite my true self... sa mga bagong kaibigan mula sa blog at sa loob at labas ng trabaho... sa mga taos-pusong tumulong sa bawat personal at propesyunal na proyekto...

KAPATAWARAN to anyone who has wronged and thought ill of me...

SINSERONG PAUMANHIN sa mga kaibigang hindi ko man lamang mapagukulan ng panahon... siyempre pa, sa mga kaibigan at katrabaho na aking nasaktan, napaiyak at nagawan ng pagkakamali... at sa sinumang hindi ko man lamang nalalaman na akin palang nasaktan... May you all find it in your hearts to forgive me...

IT IS ONLY IN EXPRESSING GRATITUDE, FORGIVENESS AND HUMBLE APOLOGIES CAN MERRIMENT BE COMPLETE...

AGAIN, MERRY MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY!!!

merry merry merry christmas...

today... let us share gifts of true joy and happiness... and these are the surprises wrapped with sincerity... packages that doesn't come with a tag price but for free... and yet, hold highest value in our hearts...

perhaps an embrace to a friend... forgiveness to an enemy... a kiss to your parent... holding the hand of your partner as you both look up to the sky... or may be even a heartfelt sorry to pople we've wronged...

and hopefully, with that, even ordinary days can be Christmas!!!

TO EVERYONE... MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE!!!!

and i'm happy happy happy...

HE'S HERE... MY ANGEL IS NOW HERE...

and it's our second night together... and love's too sweet that i can die from overdose... hahaha! uuuuuy... i like that... hmmmm... getting diabetes from love?

our plans aren't going perfectly well... schedule is kindah difficult to handle most especially that he's home earlier than expected... and i wasn't fully ready for it... talk about surprises... again and again, my angel managed to surprise me... he always does beautifully...

anyway, wala lang.... just sharing...

the lights are brighter... the carols lovelier... and the nights colder... all the more reason i should stay embraced in his arms... brrrrrrrrr... angel tighter please... hehehe!

gotta go now...

p.s.

MERRY MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

lintik na lastik...

oh well, i was suppose to let go of it na lang... hindi ko na sana iblo-blog dahil napatawad ko naman na siya pero habang nagpapalipat-lipat ng channel sa tv ang staff, we chanced upon Lastikman... and bingo... ang eksenang tumatakbo ay ang eksenang kinabwisitan ko two saturdays ago... and so, i was reminded... bumalik inis ko... hahaha!

eh paano ba naman kasi... sabado na nga lang ako bumabawi sa tulog at pahinga mula sa mapang-abuso kong work, sukat akalain ba namang sabado pa nila naisipang mag-taping sa harap na harap ng condo... buti sana kung tuktok kami ng building... eh daaaaaay... 2nd floor lang kaya...


9am pa lang ng umaga, akala ko 4pm na kasi ang sigla sigla ng mga tao... malakas ang hiyawan at mga batang parang tuwang-tuwa... eh di gising naman ako keseng ang bigat pa ng mata ko... pagsilip ko sa bintana.... naaaaaakuuuuu... ang hinayupak na si vhong navarro pala ang nasa labas at naka-suot ng seksing seksing spandex ata yun in his all so bulging muscles and basket...


at pagtingin ko sa relos, shet... 9:30 am pa lang... hindi na ako nakatulog ulit dahil potah, ang lakas ng mga sigaw ng talents... ang ingay ng unit director at ng mga legman... everytime ko maririnig ang 'camera rolling', gusto ko silang batuhin...

anyways, wala akong magagawa... so sige nanuod na lang ako from the window... like as if hindi pa ako mula sa istasyong producer ng bwiset na lastikman... as if i am still awed... eh buong buhay ko nga ata, ito na ginagawa ko... kaya halos hindi ko mapatawad na hanggang sa pagpahinga ko, hinahabol ako ng mga ganitong eksena...


by the way, i think i failed to mention... hindi pala si vhong navarro ang naka-costume na Lastikman... nahalata ko lang kasi aba... hello... patpatin si vhong kaya... eh yung naka-costume, medyo buffed... at lalong impossible na ganuon ka-endowed ang kanyang... ah basta... besides, halata naman talaga... notice it kapag wide shots tapos nagdedeliver ng line si lastikman... dinadaya lang 'yan ng tight shots or close-ups sa mukha ni vhong... insert cutaways as we call it...


hahaha! sorry piper... i know you love vhong... hehehe!

nakaganti na rin ako sa wakas sa pambubulabog nila sa tulog ko... bwehehehe!

bodacious...

this award was granted to me by charles of dabawpinoy... (hmmm... i still haven't managed to learn how to encode links in an entry so please do click on charle's site via my linklist in the sidebar... you see, mac isn't as friendly...)...

he refers to me as (ehem...ehem...hehehe) excellent, admirable or attractive.... hahaha... wait... i am enjoying too much of the flattery... it isn't really me he describes audacious in a way considered admirable... charles of course was referring to my blog... hahaha! binobola ko lang sarili ko...



ei charles, thanks... i truly appreciate this...

i wish i can keep the award for my self alone but that wouldn't be nice... i know of other blogs who probably deserve this more than i do... hahaha!

hear ye... hear ye... KINGDADDYRICH... CHASE... BURAOT... BOMBERO KING... KHALEL... PIPER... PHOEBE... PAIGE... LEO... you and your works are BODACIOUS!!!

gift of reminder...

i just received my second x-mas gift (the first of course was the news that my angel will be coming home earlier than expected)... it's for my celfone... i wasn't able to immediately recognize what it is but as i turn the other side... it sez 'angel'... o yeah... how could i have missed the halo and the pair of wings... very very cute...


manny got this for me... according from him, he did so because with it, i'll always be reminded of my angel... wow... what a sweet thought... thanks friend!

angel heard on high...

"angel kumusta ka? i will be in manila on the 17th na. mas maaga."

got this message last night @ 10:37... and in a snap, my world glittered with holiday lights... hahaha! in a hoarse voice, i couldn't help but shout for joy in fleur de lys... good thing i was with a friend or i would have made a fool of myself... who cares anyway... well, i don't...

just the other night, i was psyching myself... konting tiis na lang, ilang tulog na lang, darating na anghel mo... in fact, i remember whispering to myself sana mapa-aga... hahaha! and how magical, my celestial guardians did listen to me and must have spoken to Him... here now, prayer granted... thank You!

and so i searched for 'angel swiss' in my phonebook... dialled in excitement...

"hello... angel..."

"hello?"

"aaaaangeeeel... got your text..."

"hello...?"

"angel...angel..."

"hello... who's this? sino 'to?"

oh i get it... yeah... i almost forgot... wala nga pala akong boses... i sounded differently... hahaha!

"angel... wala akong boses... sorry... can you hear me?"

"angel... 'tep... is this you? bakit iba boses mo?"

"angel wala nga akong boses..."

"di ko kasi alam na ikaw kasi it says 'private number'... tapos iba pa boses... akala ko may iba nang tumatawag sa akin ng angel.."

and i laughed without a sound....

"angel was sick with fever kasi then bigla naman ako nawalan ng boses... must be the weather... init-lamig kasi..."

"don't strain yourself... parang tortured ka angel..."

"it's okei... angel got your message... is that true?"

"oo naman... i took na the earlier flight... was calling you yesterday to tell you pero di ka sumasagot... mga madaling araw..."

"kaw ba yun? saw the missed call... thought it was my ate...anyway, you arrive monday then... i'll pick you up... let me know the flight details... aaaanggeeeel i miiiiisss youuuuu... and i'm just happy you're back earlier..."

"ako din... got your chocolates na... angel i'm still at work... let's text na lang muna angel..."

"ay sori po... sige sige... angel embraces...mmmmmmm"

"embraces mmmmmmmm"

haaaaaaay...

and sa sobra kong saya... i shared the good news with my friends... officemates.. and i think, pati sa hindi ko friends...

really now i'm tarantated (taranta)... hahaha!

hmmmmm.. plans... got to plan... where's my stick? i need a stick... i am shaking... excited... super... oh well.. ta-ta muna... got to run down my schedule on paper and plan my next happy days... hahahaha!

p.s.

it just dawned on me... actually had a very good morning yesterday because i realized it was the 1st day of the 12 days of christmas... now... let me sing '12 days of christmas'... hahaha... after all, i got my first gift of answerd prayers wrapped in and with love...

on the 1st day of x-mas, my true love gave to me... hehehehe!

just my sentimental thoughts...

falling in love is easy given that it is a natural process for almost all of us and it truly seems the only possible and reasonable thing to do at a time you are single... but of course, some times, even when you're already committed, the heart doesn't stop... but that is a whole different story...

from the first minute we shared company, i had a familiar feeling, a fitting recognition of a former emotion ... a knowledge that a certain missing part of myself had been found and again, i'm suddenly whole...

when we met, we both had a history... but ours served to make even clearer that what we are sharing can turn out to be somethiing even more special...

it did take us both a while to trust these feelings... for my part, I had spent my life believing that couples who endows total trust, dedicated friendship, acceptance and communication is likely to succeed... i had never seen a successful relationship without it... it's constant in the recipe... and he feels the same way...

he is much younger and less wounded by a love-gone-wrong... comparatively more ideal than i am... has a sensitive heart to observe my whims... and, oh... i feel i will have so much fun with him...

and so i look forward to happy days with my angel...

give it a rest...

i can't talk...
i can't sing...
i can't holler...
i can't nag...
i can't laugh...
i can't shout...
i can't argue...
i can't explicate...

i can only whisper...

because shit!!! wala akong boses!!! nyeta!!! of all... boses ko pa ang nawala... haaaaaay, might as well give it a rest... and a better excuse to just keep still in one corner and savor peace...

i think i am being punished...

not again...

not a good equation... erratic weather conditions + stress from insurmountable work... this equates to flu... gaaaaaahhd!

not again... not now please... i have to get things done as scheduled... i've barely made my christmas gift hunting and i still have these special projects to be finished on time... i'm punishing myself now so i can enjoy my yuletide hiatus but getting the flu will definitely... definitely slow down my pace... and that i can't afford...

pretty please... down on all fours... please heavens, here me... take this sickness away...

somebody please give me a hug... huhuhu!

okay... i pulled myself from the bed this early because i've spiels scripts to finish... and i am hoping to still have enough strength later so as not to be absent... you can do it prue!

sneeze here... blow there... fiery eyes... and i'm damn feeling really cold... whew!!! ang hirap kumita ng pera... waaaah!!!

let me have this glass of milk with a yosi stick... patawad... anyway, here's hoping you're all in pink of health... unlike me! huh! bitter... hahaha! love you all...

new someone...

i met him sa mall... he was just by himself... i've met others like him in puerto galera... but he's much different...

and since that night he went home with me, halos araw-araw, kasama ko na siya... protecting me...

friends and officemates have been amused with him... others were scared... remarks like 'what was i thinking'... 'ano bang nagustuhan mo sa kanya?"...

oh well, for one... kakaiba siya... second, he's cute in his own unique way... three, after praying over him, he seems effective...

meet my new companion... TABU!!! hehehe!


i've three colors... green, black and red... hehehe! and almost everyday, i've tabu pinned on my shirt... hehehe1 cuuuuttteee!!!

random rambling on love and happiness...

today, a friend asked me through text message if i would trade love for happiness... it took me a while to reply because honestly, i didn't quite get her drift... where is she coming from... where is this leading to... and ultimately, it appears to me that we hold different meanings to love and happiness... love with happiness.... and happiness with love...

hey friend, like you said... i'll have to be truthful... my most practical sentiment... well, if that's the case... this is a very easy question... i won't... in fact, it's a far out question...

i will never trade love for happiness... and to begin with, i really will never be happy in life without love... like i always say, love provides me strangth in life just as it is my weakness... my love and my happiness goes together... i can only be happy when there's love in my life... in every sense of the word... which is why you lost me in confusion... because i just can't imagine, how can one person be happy if he gives up love...

but I think the points covered were extremely interesting... even in sex, it is practically my heart that decides and chooses who i do it with... when to do it... how to do it... and all is driven by love... okay... wait... don't get me wrong... i am not portraying myself as the virginal sublime guy... i've had my share of the play and the flirts but... but... what i'm saying is, if it's happiness we're talking about, the best encounters that count for happiness is always made out with love... the rest, which is very few (hahaha!), is nothing but passing forgettable nights... a generous provision of outlet and release for those deprived of a romantic partner... whatever prue... whatever...

to me, one of the most exciting, happy, and important parts of life is falling in love... and this is something i always truly look forward to... even in failed relationships, there's still wisdom to be learned... after all, if i do not experience pain and sadness, how can i truly know the feeling of happiness?

if someone takes away my ability to fall in love, or prevented me from experiencing pain, my life, in all honesty, will become pointless... it is just tantamount to being deprived to feel happiness in the end...

and with this in mind, i will now go back to the question of trading love for happiness... i believe they co-exist so much that it is impossible to take the other way and experience another... thus, this seems like an unfair question that is not feasible... at least, not with me...

hey friend, i don't know any better than anyone... perhaps, i am not even better than you... and that isn't the rationale at all... it is just that i feel strongly this way because it is the only thing acceptable for me... all depends on how you define your happiness... and the role love plays in your life...

here's a sidelight... you just made me realize once again how fortunate i am to experience failure... to feel pain... to be won over by anger at times... to be given the chance to wallow in shame and sadness... it makes me appreciate my life now... and the happiness i have...

are you confused yourself? or you really believe there can be happiness without love?

be guided... i pray you are...

joke... joke... joke...

i nomally don't enjoy text jokes... for the simple fact that it is forwarded, sometimes i do not read them at all... pero after our very long story conference kanina, para naman mag-lighten ang mood, binasa ng officemate ko yung mga naipon niyang text jokes... at dahil magaling magdeliver din, naku, sumakit ang tiyan at panga ko sa kakatawa... hahaha!

here's some of them...

DONYA: Bilang bagong katulong, tandaan mo na ang almusal dito ay ala-sais impunto?
INDAY: Walang problema donya. Kung tulog pa ako ng mga oras na yun, mauna na kayong mag-almusal.


KRIMINAL 1: pare, sigurado ka bang dito dadaan yung papatayin natin?
KRIMINAL 2: Oo, nagtataka nga ko, 1 oras na tayo dito, wala pa rin siya, sana naman walang nagyaring masama sa kanya.


BUS HINOLD-UP

HOLDUPPER: rereypeyin ko lahat ng babae dito.
PROSTI: Ako na lang po… maawa na po kayo sa kanila.
MADRE: Weeeh! Epal! Lahat nga daw eh. Pakialamera to, badtrip!


Si gf tumawag kay bf na may halong lambing na sinasabi:
Pwede ka ng pumunta sa bahay ngayon kasi walang tao.
Nagmamadaling pumunta si bf sa bahay ni gf… pagdating niya dun… WALANG TAO!


PATIENT: Doc, WORRIED ako kasi sobrang libog ako.
DOC: Gusto mo gamot pampaalis ng libog?
PATIENT: Hindi. Gusto ko gamot pampaalis ng WORRY!


BABAE: doc, musta na ang aking asawa?
DOC: Sori po mam. Mula ngayon kaw na ang magpapakain at magpapaligo sa asawa mo kasi putol na ang kanyang kamay at mga paa.
BABAE: ha! Hindi nga doc?
DOC: hehehe! Ninerbiyos ka noh. Joke lang misis. Patay na siya!


PULIS: namukhaan mo ba nangrape sa iyo?
MARY: Hindi po…
PULIS: Bakit?
MARY: kasi po, nag-69 po kami tapos nag dogstyle na agad. Di na kami nagtinginan.


INDAY: Mam, magpapaalam na po ako. Uuwi na po ako sa probinsiya.
MAM: nagpaalam ka na ba sa sir mo?
INDAY: hindi na po mam. Nauna na po siya, doon na daw po kami magkita.


DOC: Anong sakit mo?
MISIS: mister ko doc, ang haba ng titi. Magsesex kami umaabot sa atay ko.
DOC: gusto mo putulan ko titi niya?
MRS: huwag po doc… iurong mo na lang atay ko.


SA ROOM NG MAG-ASAWA…MAY PUMASOK NA KILLER

KILLER: gusto kong malaman ang pangalan ng victim ko bago siya patayin. Anong pangalan mo?
WIFE: inday po.
KILLER: inday din pangalan ng nanay ko. Sige, di kita papatayin, ikaw, anung name mo?
HUSBAND: my name is GARY… but my friends call me INDAY.


MRS: Bakit ngayon ka lang?
MR: Pasensiya na, nag-aya mga officemates ko, nagkainuman.
MRS: Lasing ka na noh?
MR: Hindi kaya.
MRS: Anong hindi? Wala ka namang trabaho, paano ka nagkaroon ng officem8s.


PAUL: Grabe! Nahold up ako, muntik pa akong mamatay.
RYAN: bakit… di ka ba humingi ng tulong?
PAUL: Nagtext ako sa pulis station.
RYAN: bakit anong reply?
PAUL: hay naku, eto ang reply…..HU U?


A black baby is given a pair of wings by God, he asks “ does this mean I’m an angel?
God laughs… “ of course not nigger, you’re a BAT!


GIRL: doc, paano ko malalaman kung adik ako sa titi?
DOC: gagawa tayo ng maraming pagsusuri, pero una sa lahat, bitiwan mo muna ang titi ko.


bwahahahaha! ei denmark... thanks for the load of laughter kanina... kulit mo rin eh noh!!! hahaha! o ayan ha... i did post your collection of text jokes... didn't realize we bellowed for an hour... nasayang oras natin kakatawa... and yeah, it felt good... woohoo... bukas ulit ha!

para kay angel...

and in my angel's dialect...

GIHIGUGMA KO IKAW, ANGEL!!!

hihihi... mula yan sa mataba kong puso po...

saying i love you...

three special words... “I Love You”... it is what we would always be hearing when we talk and express love... somebody out there may be waiting to hear these from us... and if we're sincere about it, we can't be reluctant... the big issue, of course, to some of us is WHEN to say it... but is there really a good timing... if you feel love towards anyone, romantic or not, there's got to be no standard or basis or qualified sign when to express it in three big words...

most people worry if the other person feels the same way... and are either hoping or fearing if the other person will say it back to them or not... let's not be this way... it sounds like a cliche but having to say 'i love you' from the heart means having to love without expecting... big deeds for any normal being... but may be... just may be... as soon as we stop expecting, the same affection and appreciation will be endowed to us...

where am i coming from anyway? well, aside from the fact that i really am 'in-love and loving' these days, this entry is also the result of a promise to my friends...

we were just kidding about it yesterday... but i indulged, i researched on how 'i love you' is said in different languages... s

so here it goes...

Afrikaans : Ek is lief vir jou / Ek het jou lief
Albanian : Te dua
Amharic : Afekrishalehou
Arabic : Ana Behibak (to a male) / Ana Behibek (to a female)
Basc : Nere Maitea
Bavarian : I mog di narrisch gern
Bengali : Ami tomAy bhAlobAshi
Berber : Lakh tirikh
Bicol : Namumutan ta ka
Bulgarian : Obicham te
Cambodian : kh_nhaum soro_lahn nhee_ah / Bon sro lanh oon
Cantonese : Ngo oi ney
Catalan : T'estim / T'estim molt (I love you a lot)
Chinese : Wo ie ni (Manderin, Cantonese)
Croatian : Volim te
Czech : miluji te
Danish : Jeg elsker dig
Dutch : Ik hou van jou
Estonian : Mina armastan sind
Esperanto : Mi amas vin
Persian : Tora dust midaram
Flemish : Ik zie oe geerne
Finnish : Mina" rakastan sinua
French : Je t'aime
Friesian : Ik bin fereale op dy
Gaelic : Ta gra agam ort
German : Ich liebe Dich
Greek : S' ayapo
Hausa : Ina sonki
Hebrew : aNEE oHEIVET oTKHA (female to male) / aNEE oHEIV otAKH (male to female)
Hindi: Mein Tumse Pyar Karta Hoon
Hokkien : Wa ai lu
Hopi : Nu' umi unangwa'ta
Hungarian : Szeretlek te'ged
Indonesian : Saya cinta padamu
Italian : Ti amo
Irish : taim i' ngra leat
Japanese : Kimi o ai shiteru
Kazakh : Men seny jaksy kuremyn
Kiswahili : Nakupenda
Korean : Tangsinul sarang ha yo
Kurdish : Ez te hezdikhem
Latin : Te amo / Vos amos
Lao : Khoi huk chau
Latvian : Es Tev milu
Lingala : Nalingi yo
Lithuanian: Ash miliu tave
Luo : Aheri
Madrid lingo : Me molas, tronca
Indonesian : Saya cintakan awak(awak=kamu=you)
Malay : Saya cintamu
Maltese: Inhobbok!
Mandarin : Wo ai ni
Mohawk : Konoronhkwa
Navajo : Ayor anosh'ni
Ndebele : Niyakutanda
Norwegian : Jeg elsker deg (Bokmaal)
Pakistani : Muje se mu habbat hai
Persian : Tora dost daram
Pilipino : Mahal Kita / Iniibig Kita
Polish : Ja Cie Kocham or Kocham Cie (Pronounced Yacha kocham)
Portuguese : Eu te amo
Romanian : Te iu besc
Russian : Ya lyublyu tebya
Scot Gaelic : Tha gra\dh agam ort
Serbian : Volim te
Shona : Ndinokuda
Sioux : Techihhila
Slovak : lubim ta
Slovene : ljubim te
Spanish : Te amo
Swahili : Nakupenda
Swedish : Jag a"lskar dig
Taiwanese : Gwa ai lee
Tamil: Naan Unnai Kadhalikiren
Thai : Phom Rak Khun
Tunisian : Ha eh bak
Turkish : Seni seviyorum!
Urdu : Mujhe tumse muhabbat hai
Vietnamese : Anh ye^u em (man to woman) / Em ye^u anh (woman to man)
Vlaams : Ik hou van jou
Welsh : 'Rwy'n dy garu di.
Yiddish : Ikh hob dikh lib
Zazi : Ezhele hezdege (sp?)
Zuni : Tom ho' ichema

no matter what language it is said... it will always mean one and the same thing...

yuletide rambling...

no month goes faster than December with its frantic countdown to Christmas.

even as I write, i'm still going ga-ga over thinking and juggling names in my head as to which gift goes to who... i just can't seem to accomplish a final list... even with the early prep and foresight, budget never seems to be enough... hahaha! the heck if my wallet and account goes near bankrupt, i will splurge... and i'll pour gifts... i'll be a santa... it's what makes me really feel joyful during christmas... the fact that i've shared...

the seasonal lights are going up in windows and on lawns all over town... it's a lovely sight and the best memories to keep... no matter what, we find a way to celebrate... despite the untimely attempt of trillanes to salvage us from the ill-government he so perceives... despite the limits in resources... and the prevailing load of work that never seem to cease in piling up, even when i try to finish everything, before i know it, i've another assignment... hahaha! cge... subukan ulit ang tatag at tibay ko.... hahaha! sorry.. inspirado si prue... tormented man ang spirit, weak man ang flesh ngayon... strong-willed naman ang puso ko ngayon... and if the universe knows me very well... huh! it would know that my greatest power emanates from the heart...

anyway, back to figuring out what gifts to get for friends and family... gaaahd... it is the harder part... especially when you realize most of them almost has everything they want... or better yet, to put it in a clearer light, at least with the things money can buy... hahaha! admittedly, what we ultimately need in life are the ones that can't be bought...

calling on my friends, acquaintances, family and other loved ones... care to share what you wish for? hehehe! just keep it to real, attaiinable wishes... okay... hahaha!

now, the hardest part of course... my gift for my angel? my angel isn't really materialistic... a simple guy with simple joys... hmmmm... how about wrapping myself in a box? hahaha! difficult ata yun... i'll definitely need the biggest balikbayan box then... hahaha! really... grabe... i still don't have a concept... there's got to be... and yes, my self pressures me because i want it to be special... hmmm... how about... hmmmm.... nuninuninu... hehehe!

oh well!

here comes december... and may it be a happy yuletide for all of us... mwah! mwah! mwah! to everyone!!!

busy bee but happy...

would love it if i were out shopping or having that movie marathon with my friends...

i already missed beyonce's concert because of my studio taping... i also failed to see Papa P's concert... mind and body have been perfectly abused to even enjoy time with myself and my sister... she'd understand, i'm very much sure...

but do i understand? not missing the concert, of course... it's about the amount of work that keeps loading up... i feel like a wheelbarrow carrying weight more than my wheels can handle... literally, at some points, my knees shook dahil sa pagod... and my muscles, nanginginig na... cried even because i'm just too damn exhausted...

grabe... di ko na mabilang... i've actually lost track of all that i have missed because of the responsibilities i have to assume... it just never changes... oh, wait... wrong... it does... it does... it gets heavier, tighter and more demanding... either i'm just too good at it or i'm plain dumb... such sucker for pain and pahirap... yeah, true to pruesadomasochism...

ilang gabi na ba akong uuwi na wala na akong lakas to even check my e-mail or my blog... and now that i have the time, i give in to the temptation of letting my steam off all over the net... huh! ok lang 'yan... breathe it out...

i saw this coming naman... hahaha! o cia sige na... universe... hear this... so what kung pagod?! so what kung bugbog ako ngayon sa trabaho?! so what kung bagsak na ako sa kama pag-uwi?! so what kung di na ako magkandatuto kung anong uunahin ko sa mga gagawin ko for the day?!

for the love of all that's beautiful... i thank God for giving me so much work... i know this is a blessing from you... truthfully, i am prepared for this naman... malaki naman ang reward sa dulo...

yeah, that's the funny thing.... i maybe wasted at the end of the day but even more inspired to accomplish everything... malapit na ang 21th... yes, i am very much looking forward to that... hehehe!

by the way, angel called two days ago... asked how i'm doing... and if i've eaten... how's my christmas daw... and i honestly answered with... "pagod pero happy"... hahaha! it's the sublime truth... angel asked why... nagmaganda naman ako... said "ewan ko.... basta..."

that of course was followed with a giggle... giggle likely to come from a lad with a 20 for waistline... hahaha!

then sabi ni angel... "angel, lapit na 21..."

and i replied... "yeah, i know... why? what about it angel?" and i was secretly smiling of course...

sabi ni angel... "ah ganun, sige... ganyan ha..." hahaha! sarap magpa-cute...

prue then made bawi... "angel... you know what... i've been wanting to tell you something..."

"what angel?" sez him...

my heart naturally let out music... "for everytime that i feel scared you won't be returning for the next few years, i die... it is because, now i know... i love you... and that if i ever stop trusting... i'll be a fool because i'm giving up on my own happiness... my life's better with you in it angel..."

those were exactly my words... i remember everything i said but i will also not forget what he said next... "kaya nga uwi ako angel... ayokong malungkot ka..."

okay... okay... pasencia na... i just really have to share it... pagpasenshahan na... tao lang.... nagmamahal... natutuwa... it isn't everyday that you are made to feel special...

hihihi!

after seeing an ex...

i've told myself many times over that the chapter of my life with him has reached it's terminal point... i've let go of the man... that i am sure of... but the sight of him still relives that feeling of romance and affection... memories bouncing back...

i wonder why he has cut his shoulder length hair to a clean do... he loves sporting that look... and yet, even with his new form, i can't help but notice how he looks pale... is it the sad eyes... or perhaps it is just my interpretation and wishful thinking that his life was far better with me... or maybe i'm keeping alive the news that he realizes eternal bliss is not always found in marriage... oh yeah, i remember him telling me he's not the marrying type... whatever happened to that anyway? well, some fool souls get lost in the attempt to secure themselves...

or maybe it isn't really over with me? otherwise, i shouldn't be giving him any space in my world... nah... i am well over the sacrifices and the sufferings... my will has stopped... it's just that leaving the past is never absolute... there always is a fragment of yesterday in our present...

while waiting for our lunch to be served, i indulged to what my heart dictates... do i miss him? yes, i do... but it's not reason enough to feel astray and confused...

i asked myself if I could have done something more... if there's something that i could have said... i was so confused but i gave him time to figure out what he wanted... because surely, i knew then what i wanted... but it was evident, we were not on the same boat...

two years back, part of me wished i had shoke sense into him... told myself to have faith in us, whatever... anything... it's not like as if i didn't do a last attempt to save our bond... but perhaps, i was too late... i was weak and too hurt to see beyond the pain...

i know there is no point in this... it's just self-validation... or whatever... I want to be reassured that i did all i could do so that i can fully move on... what with all that's been said and done, i gave it a fair chance... it was just so hopeless towards the end of our relationship... it was so hard to argue for love and us with that much hopelessness being thrown at me...

i'm just sad that he didn't even try...

but just as the same, now... there's so much gladness in my heart that he didn't even try...

i'm doing better lately... I know that... and i'm letting go... no longer hanging on to hope... you will perhaps forever live in my heart... but as a reminder of the man i used to be... the man i'd never want to be again... that will be your purpose in my life... to incessantly remind me that i can be better... and that i deserve someone better...

let this be the words of a grown and reformed man in the arms of an angel...

just for laughs...

here's something that will really make your day light, happy and hopefully, it keeps you smiling the whole day...



cute nung baby noh? haaaaay, sarap maging baby... sarap magka-baby... hehehe!