fate or faith...

tomorrow... or actually later... my life for the next few months will be determined... a choice that may very much affect how my yuletide will be... not that it is or i am depending my happiness on someone but hey, the big guy's only human... i've needs and wants... i can learn not to be demanding but i can never teach a longing heart to stop missing...

will it be fate or my faith?

i have to admit, i am scared of what the answers might be... that's how 'praning' i can get... i've waited for sure answers that can be made only today and now that the day has finally arrived, here i am... eager but fearful...

why is it raining? an early signal to my emotional onslaught? i hope not... please... dear God... please... consider it my christmas wish... let my angel come home...

later... later...