fight it...

for now... i need my sight of the sea... i need the cool breeze to brush my arms and face which by the way is just outside but i am stuck in the office... i miss my angel... i miss the good conversation... the laughter... oh gaaahd... what wrong did i do? need i ask? tanga!

one sunrise... just one... please... i feel suffocated now... i am not complaining God... please don't take it as that... you know what i mean... help me have that choir... i want it...make me want it more so i can work at it...

my clock seems to tick faster now... when was my last tawa with the halliwels? i haven't touched my harry potter book? will i ever? oh gaaaaaad... of course i will... you see, i am just terrified... i can feel it coming back...

prue...prue...fight it... don't let it... please prue... i feel like crying... not because of the pressure...not becasue of the load of work...magaan pa nga kung tutuusin... it's the feeling that some things are being stolen from me again... how come explaining to people is difficult again? how come lumalabas ulit litid sa leeg ko? your fault... not anybody else'...

i can feel that i am not happy... something i did... shit! no... no... fight it...

it is just momentous.... it won't be like this everyday... not every week... it won't happen again...

brace yourself prue... you are just overreacting... am i? she seems to be everywhere again... meetings, phone calls, text... gaaahd... not my dreams...please... okay...okay... enough...

next weekend... i'll have an overnight i calatagan... dun sa beach na pinuntahan namin ni jessie... all i need is just an overnight... stars, the shore, the whispering sea... oh... the sunrise.... the spirit is growing... okay... okay... i am now smiling... i have somehting to look forward to now... yes...that's it...

il bring myself to the beach... peace and quiet... i can still do that...