still is... always will be?

during lunch, julia mentioned that she has something to share with me later...

what about? she wouldn't spill the beans yet... but for the headlines, it's about me and a comment i made before in her blog...

i was anxious to find out what it would be... i didn't badger her any further but i did "kulit" her on seeing the blog again...

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Friday, February 2, 2007
BLISS

When was the last time you feel completely happy??? Hmmpp...simple question, right? But for me, it's so fucking hard to answer. This question hits me like a thunder...it left me dumb headed. If this could be a jackpot question in a quiz bee or in a beauty contest, I would definitely miss the chance to win.

Happiness is relative right? We percieve it differently depending on our lifestyle, priorities and perhaps intelligence...I am a self confessed shallow, sanguine person...happy camper as they often referred. I'm easy to please... eating fishballs, isaw, walking, reading and just by staring blankly would satisfy me...that's why I can't decipher why i find this question very hard to answer... tsk! tsk! tsk! happiness...happiness...happiness...what's with you? Aaarrrgggg...think happiness, burn some neurons bitch!

Posted by JULIA at 9:50 AM
1 comments:

Anonymous said...

Happiness... as they always say is a decision... you decide when, where and with whom you share it with...

but then again, "being completely happy" is a dangerous label to use... it is rather inoperative for the moment, if you were to ask me...and to say the least, the farthest thing for now...

The road is still long... nights seem colder than ever... and most of all, smiling has never been this painful...

Dah dah dah... okay... i guess... you all get it now... i am presently not "completely happy"... so when was the last time i ever felt this way...

the answer is... ULTIMATELY DON'T REMEMBER AT AAALLL...

before contemplating on what the qualified answer would be... i have to dwell on much more pressing questions... what is ultimate happiness after all? how do we define "being completely happy"? is there such a state of happiness?

maybe... just maybe... most of us. just like you and me, find it hard to answer because... to ourselves, we don't even know what would make us blissful... what ever it is on earth that may elate us to such state...

it is much easier to answer what makes me sad... rather than what makes me happy... what makes me cry is far more manageable than what makes my heart smile... oh and yes, perhaps that explains why i favor old, sour love songs than the hopeful upbeats that speaks of love being just out there like as if it's a commodity.

Apart from the many minute lackness in my life, it is the grandest requisite for me to be closely if not completely happy... LOVE... in all its forms and shapes... LOVE!

You don't need anyone to be completely happy... you don't need a lover... you just need yourself... do not depend your happiness on someone... want it... have it... decide about it... be your own self's bestfriend... Oh shit... who are these books kidding? any counselor who advices such is nothing but ham sandwhich filled with molds.

I need a man... to love and to hold... I need a man... to share and to spare... I need a man... to kiss and to please... i need a man... to fulfill and reveal...

Cliches against cliches.... but one thing can never be changed... i can be completely happy even without my branded shoes... even without my techy gadgets... even without my filled wallet... but to my heart's desire, i can never really be completely happy without HIM!

February 13, 2007 7:25 PM

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i wish i waited... til work is done... when the sun is already creeping behind the horizon...

not now when it's only 1pm and can't afford to have myself distracted with issues of the heart... of voids...

puta naman eh...

oooops... hold it... wag muna... dami pa work... saka na prue... mamaya na... sabay ka na lang sa pagbagsak ng ulan mamayang late afternoon...

julia was timely... but definitely wrong timing...

oh gahd... again... another 'like i always say'... YOU GRAVITATE YOUR MIND TOWARDS THE DOMINANT THOUGHT... so even without trying, the universe reminds me...

bah!