a perfect love?

after her period of bereavement, lorna tolentino says...

"WALANG PRFECT NA TAO.. PERO MERONG PERFECT NA PAGMAMAHAL..."

and prue very much agrees...

i am reminded too of one comment made by a colleague...

"ANONG MALI SA PAGMAMAHAL?"

"KUNG MAY NASASAKTAN, YUNG PANANAKIT ANG MALI... PERO HINDI KASALANAN ANG PAG-IBIG..."

then ther goes piper's baffling yet timely and poignant question...

"KUNG IKAW ANG DIYOS, ANONG IBIBIGAY MO KAY PRUE NGAYON?"

my answer, of course, is something or better yet, someone God already knows...

"SIYA..."

***

falling in love is easy given that it is a natural process for almost all of us and it truly seems the only possible and reasonable thing to do at a time you are single... but of course, some times, even when you're already committed, the heart doesn't stop... but that is a whole different story...

from the first minute we shared company, i had a familiar feeling, a fitting recognition of a former emotion ... a knowledge that a certain missing part of myself had been found and again, i'm suddenly whole...

when we met, we both had a history... but ours served to make even clearer that what we are sharing can turn out to be somethiing even more special...

it did take us both a while to trust these feelings... for my part, I had spent my life believing that couples who endows total trust, dedicated friendship, acceptance and communication is likely to succeed... i had never seen a successful relationship without it... it's constant in the recipe... and he feels the same way...

he is two years younger than i am but less wounded by a love-gone-wrong... comparatively more ideal than i am... has a sensitive heart to observe my whims... and, oh... i feel i will have so much fun with LIFE... AGAIN....

and so i look forward to happy days with HIM... AGAIN...

together as what? our hearts will tell in time...

for now, we'll make memories AGAIN...

P.S.

i think i already got my first Christmas present... it may even be the best!

what do i want? A REPOST!

gusto kong marinig ang bulong ng dagat... gusto kong payakap sa ihip ng hangin... gusto kong magpakalunod sa katahimikan ng isla... gusto kong dampian ng alon ang aking mga paa... gusto kong humimlay sa buhangin...

maaring mag-isa... pero mas gusto kong may naka-akay sa akin kundi man nakahawak din sa aking mga kamay... inaalayan... walang salita... tanging ngiti at gawa... ipina-a-alam sa akin na kahit anong mangyari... hindi ako tatandang malungkot... dahil hindi niya ako iiwan... umulan man o umaraw... bagyuhin man kami... dapuan man ako ng karamdaman... pumuti man ang lahat ng buhok ko... kumulubot man ang taba ko... lumaylay man ang balat ko... sa hirap at ginhawa... sabay kaming gigising para salubungin ang pagsikat ni haring araw... nagyayabang sa mundo... hindi niyo kami kayang paghiwalayin... hanggang kamatayan... hanggang sa kabilang buhay... pag-iisahin kami ng aming pag-ibig...

siya nawa...

at ako ngayo'y umiiyak...

***

this was how i felt on that heartrending thursday of june 12...

it still is what i want... the only difference is...

NOW... i shed no tears...

I JUST FIND MYSELF DAYDREAMING... AND DROWNING WITH HAPPY... SWEET... MEMORIES...
OF MEMORIES COMING BACK TO LIFE...

at siya nawa ulit!

flowers in december?

"THE ONE GUY WHO GIVES ME THE WORST PAIN IS THE ONE SAME GUY I FEEL MOST COMFORTABLE WITH AND IRONICALLY SAFEST.."
by prue

before I let you down again,
I just want to see you in your eyes.
I wouldn't have taken everything out on you,
I only thought you could understand.
they say every man goes blind in his heart,
and they say everybody steals somebody's heart away.
and I got nothing more to say about it
nothing more than you would me.
send me your flowers of your december,
send me your dreams of your candied wine.
I've got just one thing I can't give you...
just one more thing of mine
they say every man goes blind in his heart
and they say everybody steals somebody's heart away
and I've been wondering why you let me down
and I've been taking it all for granted

P.S.

may friendship not jade self-preservation... when the past relives in the present, all it should deserve is friendship... for my own heart's sake...

piper says, prue says... (thoughts on love)

of course everybody's free to read on... i've my bff piper's consent to let everbody eavesdrop on our exchange of thoughts about love and LDR (long distance relationship)...

most times, piper and prue are on the same plane... and more often than not, our wavelengths bring us crossing the same road on the same boat...

and so here's a mouthful to both wise, sensitive, brave hearted and stale, clueless and inexperienced men... definitely not for the faint of hearts... hahaha! may your ires not be irked...

piper says: Ito na nga ba ang sinasabi ko. Kaya nga pala ayoko magka-boyfriend...kasi ayoko ng stress.

prue says: yes, sometimes having a boyfriend is stressful... and sustaining the fire in the relationship even more... worst, when you carry the guy on your back... bigat magbuhat... mahirap kumarga... nakakapagod umalalay...

piper says: i can just see my friends doing THE FACE saying, "asssuuuu....eto na naman si evette"...

prue says: hmmmm. didn't make that face... instead, "hahaha... napagod na si piper bumaba."

piper says: I am tired. After almost 6 months, yup...I'm exhausted. Eh kasi naman, ang tagal na sakin ng 6 months noh. I don't think I can still go on.

prue says: 6 months isn't your longest... you've had more strenuous and unbearable "relationships" over a longer period... you tried and now your tired... came early because i think, on this one, you gave more... hmmm... a different piper... maagang nagsipag... maagang nagbigay... maaagang nag-alay ng sobra... maagang napagod... be it known to you piper, prue admired you though... you had and showed faith... but faith isn't all that keeps a relationships work.

piper says: My attempt to explain why I am tired:

1. There's so much distance between us. Thinking of when to see each other again is tiring. Especially when you are the only one thinking. Haha.

prue says: ouch! did you expect otherwise piper? foolish but again, you had the faith...

piper says: 2. there's so much distance between us... when it comes to our views on things. Really, this is major...and sad. Diba pag trinanslate mo to sa mga legal cases, ang tawag dito IRRECONCILABLE DIFFERENCES? Eh diba pag may IRRECONCILABLE DIFFERENCES KAYO, ground ito for annulment? So weh pano? ha? ha? Pano na? Ha? haaaay.....

prue says: differences? yes... but irreconcilable? it maybe reconcilable but how much are both willing to give... again, mahirap pag isa lang... kaya compromise... kaya reconcile... it requires both... it can't just be the piper... bias ako... i know you very well... and i know little of him... by the way, ikaw ang drained kasi it was you who gave more... he is giving less to it, kaya hindi pa siya ubos... gets?
i'm sure you do... people who give more tend to grow tired earlier than the rest...

piper says: 3. There's so much distance between us....when it comes to values. Ang values, subjective. Alam ko yun. Hindi ko iniiba ang values ni dreads. Alam ko na yun eh. Ang tanong, kaya bang magsama ng dalawang taong magkaiba ang values? Di nga, puwede ba yun?

prue says: so much distance in terms of values? naku... i say, hindi... imposible... o cge na nga... possibly... it can be easily said that again, it's just a matter of compromising or respecting each other's values... if one is willing to give up his own or atleast learn from the other, why not... but why would one give up his own clear set of values... it is what makes up a person... siya yun kasi siya yun... let me reiterate, CLEAR SET OF VALUES... CLEAR SET HA... not having a clear set of values is most likely not having any at all... get the drift? Prue's stand is... pwedeng magmahalan ang dalawang taong magkaiba ang values pero hindi sila pwedeng magsama... they will only doom themselves... they can only dream of living a lifetime together... totohanin ang panaginip kung pareho na kayo ng pananaw sa buhay... take your item no. 4 piper...

piper says: 4. There's so much distance between us....when it comes to future-planning. Dreads lives in the NOW. -- which is also a good thing. I live in the NOW and the FUTURE.

prue says: kung hindi niya iniisip ang future pero ikaw iniisip mo, hindi kaya maiwanan siya pero dahil mahal mo siya, aalalayan mo siya para sabay kayo or makasabay siya... pero hindi naman pwedeng ikaw lang ang handa para bukas...

piper says: Dreads knows what he can do and dwells on what he cannot do. I know what I WANT and I know HOW TO GET IT.

prue says: paano nasabi na he knows what he can do? i think he doesn't know what he can do... he dwells on what he cannot do because it's his convenient excuse for not knowing what he want... o baka naman talagang ayaw mag-effort kaya maging sa ibang bagay, dun na lang tayo sa kumbinyente... hindi kaya? kumbinyente kayang hintayin na lang natin kung anong ibibigay ng buhay...

piper says: Dreads is a dreamer. I am a dreamer and a doer.

prue says: a dreamer alone wakes up to nothingness in neverworld... piper makes dreams come true because she's a doer... hindi pwedeng isang tao lang ang tumupad sa panaginip ng dalawang tao...

piper says: Dreads takes his sweet time. I am sweet...and believes TIME should not be wasted.

prue says: taking the sweet time is for the much blessed in life... for those who have very less, time can't be their luxury... english 'yan para hindi masakit sa tenga at mata... kapag tinagalog ko, masakit ang maisusulat ko about this one...

piper says: Dreads can afford to kill time for 24 hours. I think 24 hours a day is not enough, dapat at least 28 hours ang isang araw.

prue says: piper... you can always borrow from the next day... hahaha! huminahon ka... i feel otherwise... i want to shorten the day... i can't wait for christmas...hahaha!

piper says: Yes. I am citing our differences. eh ano ngayon, pagod ako eh. wala kong paki. hihihi. di nga, nakakapanghina ito sa totoo lang.

prue says: of course you're tired with this one... it's only you who thinks of the your (plural) future... most times (let's give it to him, the very few times, may ginawa naman siya...) it's only you who do things for you (plural)... eh ikaw lang siyempre ang gagawa dahil ikaw lang ang may pahalaga sa oras...

aaaaah... dito pa lang pala ang questions... hahaha! so mahabang blog-an pala ito... eh okay... game ako... pag-ibig ba naman ang pag-usapan eh... hahaha! dito na tayo magkakatalo...

piper says: Which leads me to these questions:

QUESTION # 1: CAN LOVE REALLY EXIST BETWEEN TWO UNEQUALS?

prue says: a classic isyu 101 topic...

my stand is... YES, LOVE CAN EXIST BETWEEN TWO UNEQUALS... in every aspect... no matter what kind or form.

Our stand will of course vary depending on how we view love... what we think of it...

Love for me is more than just an emotion, it is a will to surrender and sacrifice...

With that, how can love not exist between two unequals?

Now here's the thing... WILL LOVE WORK BETWEEN TWO UNEQUALS?

Sticking to my definition of love, YES, IT WILL WHEN ONE OR BOTH IS WILLING TO SURRENDER AND SACRIFICE.

But for HOW LONG WILL IT WORK?

Until one is still willing to surrender and sacrifice...

so DOES LOVE EVER DIE?

YES, IT DOES... WHEN EVENTUALLY, NOT EVEN ONE IS WILLING TO SACRIFICE AND SURRENDER.

but shouldn't love be eternal?

YES, if you are already celestial...

not because it ended it means it's not love... everything in life comes full circle...

piper says: QUESTION # 2: WHEN YOU'RE TIRED, DO YOU JUST REST?

prue says: yes... i rest... if i don't, i will definitely burn out... and so will my heart...

piper says: QUESTION # 3: IS THIS CONDITIONAL LOVE? Magpakatotoo tayo, mahirap ang UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. May ganun ba talaga?

prue says: Yes, that is conditional love... and magpapakatotoo ako, mahirap ang unconditional love... but it exists... we are capable of genuine, true, unconditional love... it doesn't come easy but we can...

actually, hmmmm... this is a good question if only because it brings to mind a counter-premise, is there such a thing as CONDITIONAL LOVE? If it's conditional, is it love?

oh well, semantics... conditional love and unconditional love are theoretically antonyms... but if it's conditional, wouldn't it make love a commodity? condition... give before i give... pay before you acquire... suffer before i sacrifice...

piper says: QUESTION # 4: WHEN SOMEONE DOESN'T EXERT EFFORT AND TELLS YOU "EH WALA AKONG MAGAWA"? Do you believe him?

prue says: No, 'wala kang ginawa' is more like it...

piper says: QUESTION # 5: WHEN THAT SOMEONE TELLS YOU "intindihin mo naman ako" WHEN YOU FEEL THAT YOU HAVE DRAINED YOURSELF TO UNDERSTAND HIM, SHOULD YOU ANSWER HIM BACK AND SAY: "eh patayin mo na lang kaya ako!"

prue says: ang isasagot ko sa kanya, 'pinipilit kitang intindihin pero hindi na kita maintindihan kung bakit hindi mo rin ako maintindihan... ang hirap nating intindihin... naiintindihan mo?'

piper says: QUESTION # 6: WHEN YOU SHARE A SUN LINE TO AVOID HEARING THE LINE "wala akong load eh" BUT YOU STILL HEAR THE LINE "eh walang signal eh", O ANO KA, ANO MASASABI MO DUN? HA? HA? HAHAHAHA! NATATAWA NA KO SA MGA ORAS NA TO.

prue says: ay... ay... hay naku... ewan ko... ang masasabi ko lang, wag pagurin... lalo pa't isa lang ang willing to sacrifice and surrender, naku... mapapagod talaga ang gumagawa ng paraan...

piper says: QUESTION # 7: WHEN YOU'RE UP THERE AND HE'S DOWN BELOW, GIVEN...TUTULUNGAN MO SIYA. ANG TANONG, HANGGANG SAN?

prue says: hanggang kaya mo... kapag hindi mo na kaya, tama na...

piper says: QUESTION # 8: WHEN ALL HE SAYS IS HE MISSES YOU AND HE LOVES YOU FOREVER, DO YOU JUST HAVE FAITH IN HIM? YUN LANG HA. YUN LANG ANG PINANGHAHAWAKAN MO. HAHA. WALA NGANG EFFORT DIBA?

prue says: i don't do small talk... even in love, i don't... i appreciate lines like that... but i have more faith in a man who does rather than just say... lambingan, okay 'yan... pero usaping pangmatagalan, kalokohan 'yan...

piper says: QUESTION # 9: (eto medyo digging up the past ha, again, wala akong paki) WHEN HE THINKS THAT SAYING I LOVE YOU TO HIS EX GIRLFRIEND IS OKAY TAPOS ANG DAHILAN AY "friend ko sha eh" SHYET. MAY TATALO DUN? CGE NGA? YES, I TOO WAS STUPID TO GIVE HIM ANOTHER CHANCE. HAHAHAHA

prue says: yes, you were stupid bff but nevertheless, that was love and if only for that... i salute you...

piper says: QUESTION # 10: AT ETO KA, ETO KA. WHEN FACED WITH TWO CHOICES...A CHOICE BETWEEN PLANNING YOUR FUTURE, REUNITING WITH YOUR HONEY AFTER MORE THAN A MONTH, SCOUTING FOR POSSIBILITIES, EXPLORING A NEW WORLD, SETTING UP GAMEPLANS FOR YOUR CAREER, WITH FUN TRIPS AND HAPPY SUNSHINY DAYS vs. A GIG AT ICM WHICH HE ALREADY SAID NO TO, KAYA LANG SAYANG DAW KASI FASHION SHOW NG MOSSIMO, DEADMA NA KUNG MASAYANG ANG PLANE TICKET NA AKO ANG NAGBAYAD AT NAKABOOK NA THREE WEEKS AGO ....AT ANO ANG PINILI? GO FIGURE. eto naman ang choice niyo: maniniwala ka bang mahal ka niya talaga at iintindihin mo? o sasalampak ka sa upuan mo, magsisindi ng yosi, titingin sa kawalan at tatanungin ang sarili, "san ko nga ulit nakilala ito?, may problema ba ko nung mga panahong yun?"

prue says: sasalampak sa upuan... magsisindi ng yosi... tapos tatawag sa telepono... refund the ticket... uupo ulit... sisindi ulit yosi... at babatukan ang sarili... 'eh bakit ba naman kasi ibinili ko pa ng tiket sa eroplano... pwede namang barko na lang.'

what's the news on me?

most of the scripts are still being revised and i have to wait for everybody to accomplish my inputs...

and so i am left with nothing much to do...

now, that's something new... hehehe! not being 'ngarag'... or atleast managing to handle work-related stress better... my bet is my vacation really did me good...

anyway, what's the NEWS on me?

1. not that it's really a big deal but like i said, i am better at handling stress now...

2. i'm sporting an 'emo' look... bangs extending to my chin... one-sided of course... got tired of my usual hairstyle...

3. i've four new books (twilight saga - twilight, new moon, eclipse and breaking dawn... through with the first... on to new moon)

4. my heart's delighted... i've a hubby... i (or rather we) call each other 'hugz'... lovelife's finally blooming... does that make me an official 'ilokano' then? hahaha!

5. i am simplifying my life... this is the fourth time i've attempted such a feat... but if love can move mountains, love can re-invent this big lump of lard...

6. and to simplify my life, a few mandates on myself now... work starts at 10:30am... leave office by 7pm (except on very exceptional cases like tonight)... and i say, since i got back to work, i have been able to observe that... i declare, I WILL ENSLAVE MYSELF NO MORE!!! YEAH, I DECLARE!!!

7. having laid on that divan while doing the psy-war with my shrink really improved my anger management... what a relief... i deserve a kudos... my friends will attest to my reformation... I WILL NOT SWEAT THE SMALL STUFF... AND HOPEFULLY, EVEN THE BIG STUFF!!! I WILL ALLOW NO ONE TO GET INTO MY NERVES!!! guess what?! i am very good at it already... hmmmm... now i miss her (the shrink i mean)...

8. no more dinner for me... no more heavy, sweet and salty, carbo-heavy intake as soon as the sun goes down... i am very determined to lose pounds...

9. spending a thousand bucks and so everyday is already a thing of the past... i never thought i'd manage with a hundred bucks a day but i am enjoying the process... now, i can eat with my friends in the cafeteria (no pun intended)... hehehe! i hope my friends at work appreciate me for that... they know better...

10. i don't shout anymore... did you read that? I DON'T SHOUT AT ANYONE ANYMORE!!! wait... i realized that only now... woooooooow!!!!

11. at oo nga, i just asked my friends... I DON'T USE FOUL WORDS TOO NAAAAAA!!! yes... oo... hindi na ako nagmumura... i am awed with this realizations... i never knew these (items 10 and 11) until this very minute...

i'll end my post on this note... my friends and i are having dinner na... ay... sila lang pala... i'm joining them lang sa caf... o naks naman... hahaha!

P.S.

sana Lord, i am right about everything... thank you for guiding me... i like who i am now... made me see the light, didn't You? Love you God!

P.P.S

may isa pa pala... i am now wearing shoes... pahinga muna flip flops and sandals... my new nail hasn't grown yet though... by the way, walang umattend sa libing... hahaha!

make it forever...

he ignored me, staring up at the moon.

"twilight, again," he murmured. "another ending. no matter how perfect the day is, it always has to end."

"some things don't have to end," i muttered through my teeth, instantly tense.

he sighed.


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Twilight
Edward Cullen and Bella Swan

and i do...

"i miss you," i whispered.

"i know. believe me. i know. it's like you've taken half my self with you."

"come and get it then." i challenged.

"soon, as soon as i possibly can. i will make you safe first." his voice was hard.

"i love you." i reminded him.

"could you believe that, despite everything i've put you through, i love you, too?"

"yes, i can actually."

"i'll come for you soon."

"i'll be waiting."

as soon as the phone went dead, the cloud of depression began to creep over me again.


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Twilight
Edward Cullen and Bella Swan

are you my life now?

i pouted.

"you were very deeply asleep; i didn't miss anything." his eyes gleamed. "the talking came earlier."

i groaned, "what did you hear?"

his gold eyes grew very soft. "you said you loved me."

"you knew that already," i remindd him, ducking my head.

"it was nice to hear, just the same."

i hid my face against his shoulder.

"i love you," i whispered.

"you are my life now," he answered simply.

there was nothing more to say for the moment. he rolled us back and forth as the room grew lighter.


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Twilight
Edward Cullen and Bella Swan

my HAPPY GOLDEN DAYS...

i waited for the hands to point north... it's a personal tradition... i rejoice as i bid goodbye to august... and say HELLO to BER MONTHS...

almost all of my friends got the text but just so i continue spreading the good news, i am expressing my warmest ber greeting to everyone in cyberworld...

11:55pm
aug. 31, 2008
sunday

YEEEEEEHEEEEEY! BER NA! Merry merry meeeeerrrii christmaaaaas! My gahd!
Saya di ba! O kung may kasama ka ngaung kaibigan, hug mo then say THANK YOU FOR EYBRITING then pwede din i-kiss... hihihi... kung lovey dovey, eh di romantic kiss then embrace then whisper sa kanya ng pagka-sweet sweet na I LOVE YOU HUGZ este kung anuman term of endearment niyo... kung family, groooouuuup huuuug at paalalahanan ng REGALO KO HA... kung crush naman, i-hold ang hand then bulungan ng I LIKE YOU... uuuuy...kahit cno pa 'yan,MERRY MERRY MERRY CHRIIIIISTMAAAAS NAAAA! Magsayang ng piso, gumastos sa pagtawag, manghawa... SPREAD DA JOY! Bawal malungkot, bawal magmukmok, nawal magalit!

9:30am
sept. 04
thursday

Magandang thursday sa ating lahat... to those who have shoot today, smooth sailing coverage will be yours... to those who are ill, i breathe of recovery... to those being tested and are going through difficult times, today will be better than yesterday... to those who are loveless, know that somebody's on his way... to the penniless, it's almost payday.. to those whose family member is sick, laughter or a simple but meant smile is prescribed... Sa ating lahat, WE ARE BEING WATCHED OVER... HE'LL NEVER FORSAKE US... so let's smile, TODAY IS A MIRACLE!

10:30am
sept. 05
friday

reeeeedyoooooys... seeeleeebreeeyt... it's the 1st friday of a BER-y very happy season... 15 more Viernes to go and it's Paaaaasko Naaaaa!!! Bawal sumibangot ha!

5:20pm
sept. 06
saturday

As the carol goes, ONCE AGAIN, HAPPY GOLDEN DAYS... araw-araw tayong ngumiti... despite the odds and predicaments, harapin natin ng nakangiti ang buhay... Not all situations are problems and no problem is unresolvable... CHallenges 'yan, ibig sabihin, kayang PAGWAGIAN... Remember, we're never penniless, we're just FINANCIAKKY CHALLENGED... we're never loveless, we're just ROMANTICALLY CHALLENGED (hindi ako kasali ngayon diyan... hahaha)... we're never engot, we're just INTELLECTUALLY CHALLENGED... o cia, magpatugtog ng christmas carols... tabihan ang mga mahal sa buhay... kumanta ng sabay-sabay... and u'l be reassured... MAGANDA ANG BUHAY... WOOHOOOO... SABADO NIGHTS! 15 weeks na lang...

locked in...

"I was afraid... because for, well, obvious reasons, I can't stay with you. And i'm afraid I'd like to stay with you, much more than I should." I looked down at his hands as I spoke. It was difficult for me to say this aloud.

"Yes," he agreed slowly. "That is something to be afraid of, indeed. Wanting to be with me. That's really not in your best interest."

I frowned.

"I should have left long ago," he sighed. "I should leave now. But I don't know if I can."

"I don't want you to leave," I mumbled pathetically, staring down again.

"which is exactly why I should. But don't worry. I'm essentially a selfish creature. I crave your company too much to do what I should."

"I'm glad."

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Twilight
Edward Cullen and Bella Swan

on nightfall...

I was still staring when his eyes suddenly shifted back to mine.

"It's the safest time of day for us," he said, answering the unspoken question in my eyes. "The easiest time . But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" He smiled wistfully.

"I like the night. Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." I frowned.

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Twilight
Edward Cullen and Bella Swan

who am i?

sourced this from the site of a new buddy from the office, alex... and i must say that i am awed at how this bloggy stuff can be 90% accurate... or perhaps just dreaming and wishing? hmmm... maybe not...

here goes...

What PRUE'S REAL NAME Really Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people.
Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems.
Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

P.S.

i would have embedded the code but... hehehe... it obviously reveals my real name and that's something i really don't want to do for personal reasons, of course, and let's just say - for security purposes na rin... hahaha... as if may stalker...

anyway, if anybody's interested to find out what their name has to say about their personality, just go to http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz/...

this muna until prue has organized her ilocos archive... hehehe!

pakikiramay...

baka gusto niyong makiramay sa akin... kasi... poooooooooooottttaaaahhhhhh!!!

aaaaaaaarrrrraaaay!!! namatayan ako ng kuuukoooooo... at mula sa pagudpud hanggang dito sa manila, kumikirot pa rin siya... i stopped taking dolfenal for the pain for belief na hindi na siya sasakit but no... ang kiiirrroooot ng laman... i did continue taking amoxicillin though...

patawad.... alam ko gross... pero shiiiiiiiiittt talaga... akala ko kasi hindi siya namatay... it didn't really turn black... just gray... but very off the usual pinkish toenails... oh well, i don't actually know if it's suppose to turn black kaagad or kung talagang after a period of time pa... really at that time, i don't even know kung patay nga ba yung nail ko or na-trauma lang... first time eh... at hindi siya masarap na feeling ha para sa first time... potah naman talaga po... gaaaahd!!!

sige... go... takbo sa shore... sige harutan daw sa pampang... ayun, as if naman napaka-flexi ko at napakataas ng angat ng paa ko kapag humahakbang eh halos hilahin ko nga lang ang paa ko lalo pa't masakit na sa kakatakbo...

i tripped over a small bato... actually hindi maliit, malaki... nakabaon lang kaya may nakausli... ang kasamaang palad, yung 2nd daliri (katabi ng hinlalaki... don't know what's it called...) ko sa kanang paa ang pinaka-nasabit... next thing i know, i was already dancing 'skip to my loo' dahil sa sobrang sakit... and whoa, pagtingin ko sa daliri ko sa paa, pakiramdam ko nawalan din ako ng dugo sa ulo...

gray na gray na ang kuko ko at namamaga ang daliri... don't worry... i have no plans of posting pics ng na-trauma kong toe... hahaha... oa na... super gross.... but i did take pictures for a lasting remembrance of my pagudpud kagagahan...

Oh God... Lord... please... please please please talaga... please let the new nail grow back kaagad... i love sandals... i've collected flip flops even... you know naman na bihirang bihira ko isuot ang aking mga sapatos at rubber shoes... sandals guy ako di ba... flip flops here and there even in the office...

unless gusto mo akong magpa-bazarre ng sapin sa paa...

sheeeeeeet talaga... until now, hindi naman siya nangingitim but i was really anxious to find out bakit siya kumikirot... so medyo kinuha ko si nipper... silip lang... Diyos ko po... naka-angat na pala si kuko ko... kaya naman pala gray na kasi hindi na siya nakadikit sa laman... hello... may logic naman ako... obviously, if it's the case, wala ng buhay si kuko ko... hindi pa lang nangingitim but surely, it's dying na...

God naman eh... ikaw naman eh... tatapikin mo lang ako, ganito pa... sana naman God binatukan mo na lang ako... kinurot sa singit... o kaya piningot sa tenga... did you really just want to call my attention... warn me of some sort... bait naman ako dun sa pagudpud ah... Godm ang pait nito ha, masaklap... napakasakit na pangyayari... natatawa na lang ako ha... ikaw God ha, you really always have a way of calling my attention... kapag gusto mo akong pagalitan o pagsabihan... naman eh... patay na kuko talaga ang binigay mo sa akin...

alam ko na kung bakit... sabi ni doc, 2 months after pa mamatay ang ugat... by then, pwde na bunutin... and then another two months for the new nail to fully grow back and replace the old... so malamang mga 4-5 months... waaaaaaaaaaahhh!!!

God ha... madali ba akong makalimot sa mga pangaral mo, hindi naman ah... talagang paaalalahanan mo ako ng paaalalahanan through my patay na kuko na... para sa tuwing makikita ko siya, i'll be reminded to behave... hmp! i was mabait... just that i gave my heart away again... was it really that bad?

God ha... serious ako.. nagpapanic ako... patay na kuko ito noh... naman eh... naiiyak ako talaga... at talagang kung kelan pa ako babalik na sa work saka pa... waaaaaah... mukha tuloy akong timang dito sa blog...

nabaliw dahil sa patay na kuko... mas maganda ata kung... hmmm... nagbigti ng dahil sa patay na kuko... hindi nakayanan ang lungkot na idinulot ng patay na kuko kaya sinabayan na sa libing ang patay na kuko... waaaaaaaah...

imbes tuloy na bugshots ng magandang paraiso at pag-ibig ang pinopost ni prue, hindi ko mapaghandaan... hindi ko ma-upload pa sa iphoto... eh kasi dalawang araw na akong nakatitig sa kanang paa ko... hoping na maaawa siya sa akin at bubuhayin niya si kuko...

pero wala... kailangan ko nang isuko ang pag-asa ko... coz dear friends, ive already cut part of it... to let it breathe... the rest of it will have to wait when the roots have dried as well... until then, my almost 25 pairs of sandals of sandals and flip flops ay pagpapahingahin ko muna...

haaaaaaaaay nakuuuuuu!!!

P.S.

lessons learned...

1. bawal talaga ata ang masyadong masaya... may kapalit... in my case, buhay nga ang puso ko, namatay naman ang kuko ko...

2. kapag medyo lampa at tanga at hindi naman talaga agile, wag nang makipaghabulan sa kaulayaw... marami namang pwedeng lambingan... pwede namang nakinig na lang ng kantang "moonlight kiss" sa ipod habang hinihintay si sunset at humindig sa balikat eh... (eh kasi naman, nagawa na namin yun... hihihihi!)

3. naaaaakuu naman... at ngayon ko lang narealize, lagi ko naman bitbit ang aking speedo footwear kapag out of town ako lalo pa't beach dahil nga nag-iingat ako sa masakit na bato at para secured talaga ang paa ko from anything and everything... at dala ko siya sa pagudpud ha... bakit naman hindi ko siya naisuot ng mga oras na iyon... kung kailan naman talaga ako magtatakbo... naku naman... ok ok ok, mabuhay lang si kuko ulit... sinusumpa ko, never na akong pupunta sa shore ng hindi yun ang suot ko... super trauma na talaga... napakatanga ko...

haaaaaaay nakuuuuuu... na-stress ako bigla... will go to the parlor now... after all, tipid na ako sa pedicure... kulang na ako ng isang kuko... discounted na dapat... puuuuuuunnnyyeeeeeetttttaaaaaaa!!! hahahahaha!

swept by pagudpud...

ok... ok... where's the pagudpud frenzy on this blog? yeah... i have not shared anything yet... and that's because i was... BACK TO PAGUDPUD!

yup... read that pretty right... i went back to pagudpud... in a flash... in a snap... spur of the moment thing... 3 days after my return to manila, i was agitated... feeling uneasy... something was both pulling and pushing me to pack my stuff and take the 10 hour ride again to my new 'nearest farthest' paradise...

the plan was to wash off my pagudpud hay moments but after two days of city life, i was (in a good way...) unbalanced, restless and frantic...

i felt i left half of myself in pagudpud... my heart, my soul, my mind... all were torn apart... hence, my disconcerted self... and the nice thing about it is... all were in a good way... lol!

oh gahd... whatever happened... i was beautifully tormented to take back whatever part of me i left there... by the sparkling sands... under pagdupud sun and moon... where habagat and amihan meet... someone wasn't aware he was already owning me... never meant... but it happened...

it was unexpected... yet, i surrendered... yotninam... ukininam... as the ilokanos would express it... hahaha!

five days after, prue's back to her usual urban time... i did reclaim my full mind and body... but not sure if my heart is marrying with my sensible senses... that is something i will have to see through the coming days...

my sanity has managed to escape my attention... and so does the wity turning to foolish... i may be struck with the one thing i tried to avoid... incidental? accidental? nah... perhaps magical...

P.S.

pagudpud... where i felt love... fell in love... wanting to make love (as if... prue's pure trip remains... the last line is somewhat just an expression to emphasize the feeling... hahaha! tama na kasi ang pagka-defensive prue eh... hahaha!)

haaaaaay... yup, i know... it's baduy... hahaha! we all turn baduy when the big L strikes...

and to make it even more baduy, let me say this... this moment, i feel i still left my heart in pagudpud... bahala na...

MORE PAHABOL: reposting piper's recent entry about me...


Tuesday, August 19, 2008
where's the prue gone?


few hints why prue is not blogging lately.....

"Hay naku bff, pumunta ka dito sa pagudpod! I promise you. You'll fall in love and you'll feel loved that you would want to make love over and over again!

on a separate conversation....

"Gusto ko lang sabihin na ngayon lang ako nakakita ng ganito kadaming buko na nagliliparan! May bagyo ata!"

Piper: May bagyo nga, tangeks! Karen ang pangalan! Sinuspend na nga classes dito noh!

"Ganun? Anong signal? signal number pag-ibig???"

Waaaahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!

back from pagudpud...

yes... i am back.... fresh from pagudpud, ilocos norte... and i mean fresh, wala pa ata akong isang oras dito sa condo... hahaha!

did i have fun? oh well, let's put it this way... i planned only to put my feet up over the north's pride for only 5 days ... but whoa, next thing i know, i'm extending and extending and extending stay... until i practically didn't realize it's been 10 days... hahaha!

anyways, i missed my bed... and my pillows... i'll sleep for a while... then will be posting pics, mtvs and oh yeah... a wonderful wondeful wonderful love story in pagudpud...

hihihihihihihi!

P.S.

missed blogging and my blog friends...

bound for pagudpud...

making the most of my vacation... and so after the island of camiguin... next dwell is another paradise of pristine white sand and crystal blue waters...

PAGUDPUD of Ilocos Norte...

and this time, no plane... no ferry ride... Prue will rough it a bit and will board the sleeper bus...

on the road to Boracay of the North...








P.S.

as i've heard, the longest contiguous shore can be found in Pagudpud... beach after beach after beach... hmmmm... well, my legs are all ready for the adventure... after all, like camiguin, it's my virgin visit to the province... Olah!

camiguin captivates...

so i don't bore anybody of my usual verbal diarrhea, i produced an mtv out of the snapshots i had of camiguin... simple dissolves though... nothing fancy... reduced quality due to conversion...

in any case, here's bringing you the island's wonders...

prue's pure shores

in love with camiguin island...

HAVE TIME FOR YOURSELF... it has been so long since i had one and i'd say, my odyssey to camiguin will be written off as one of those 'best five days of my life'...

but i'll throw in the headlines for the meantime while i wash off my vacation hangover... let my bugshots treat you to an eyeful of natural wonders and historical riches...

such as the white island... where the sandbar is immaculately or radiantly white my pictures are washed out...



katibawasan falls...


and 30 minutes off the island's coastline is another white island... Mantigue...


the natives of Sagay town flaunts of resourcefulness and ingenuity with their almost 200 year old Sto. Rosario church... the chandeliers were actually made from twigs...



and since the caretaker of the Corrales centennial house was away... i can only marvel from outside...

and one hour away from Mambajao, the town capital of the island, is the Sunken Cemetery's Cross landmark...

the sun was about to rest when we reached the Sunken Cemetery... and what i witnessed took my breathe away...


now, being there at that moment really gave me the quivers...

the island born of fire provided me not only the chance to stay away from the city hustle and bustle... but also the moment for contemplation... realizing how life can be simple and yet, be locked in joy...

i am glad the island embraced me...

P.S.

just an initial salvo on my camiguin get-away...