light entry...

was jumping from one blog to the other and i saw a post with this clip from youtube...

really aliw... light entry muna to break-away from the disturbance threat of "my return of the come-back" (i know you get the drift...) ... so indulge with me please...

a love story...

i chanced upon the full trailer of Aga and Maricel's movie, A Love Story... just click on the blog title if you wanna see it too..

kindah got struck with the question... When will love ever be enough? hmmm... it's an isyu 101 topic... hahaha! well, if i am not mistaken... we have had that topic before...

anyway, when will love ever be enough? anybody wanna share a vein of their heart?

and there goes the question most of us can practically relate... if not, atleast has found ourselves in the same predicament... when does a wife become a mistress? when does a mistress become a wife? hmmm...

teka... teka... ganito na lang... let us address the premises in the movie...

1) Who are you in real life?

a. Aga - the one who just needs to be loved
b. Maricel - the one who just willingly gives it
c. Angelika - the one who will do anything just to have it

2) Should you find yourself in a troika relationship, who will you be? the one who will fight for him? or the one who will make the sacrifice?

3) when will love ever be enough?

hahaha...corny noh... hahaha... let me start...

I think i am... honestly, i think i am Maricel... and the one who will make the sacrifice should my man have another... to begin with, hindi pinagtatalunan yun... ipamigay kung may iba... hahaha!

Now the hard part, when wil love ever be enough?

hmmm... next entry yun... ang hirap... i am not built for it for the moment... mahabang sagot... i need to come off from a fragment in the past...let me hold back for a while

P.S. naku ha...P.P. kasalanan mo ito... nahihilig tuloy ako sa pelikulang pilipino na love story...

kailangan kita...

okay...okay... i'm finally sharing my pictures of P.P. with you guys... and while i'm doing this entry, i can't breathe... there goes that feeling again, naiiyak ako... hahaha!

gaaaahd... kailangan kita... hahaha!

okay...game!








i don't have words to describe the feeling... really... all i know is P.P. should be my friend... one day he will be...
Just look at him in Blessie and Vicky's picture... i mean, gaaaaaaahd!


i have two pictures of him wiithout a shirt on... now that's mine alone... hehehe...

declaration of commitment...

from here on...

NO RICE!!!

NO RICE!!!

NO RICE!!!

natural diet is not for me... i'v e accepted that... but i will push...

ALL SYSTEMS GO FOR DIET SI PRUE!!!

validation...

*** "I was browsing my friends in my friend's list and I saw your pics. You look very happy (with your Angel, that is). I am glad you are. Nakakatuwa ka.

When people are happy, they tend to think better. I hope you can translate that happiness to more creative work and produce. Alam ko naman na magaling ka sa field mo.

Ciao, classmate." ***

this was a message from joey, a seatmate in college... we weren't really close.. in fact, the only role i played in his college life was this pig ass who bullies him to no end... oh and yes, i am gay and a bully back then (perhaps, even up to now...)...

this is why i appreciate his nice comment... i wouldn't expect anyone to actually validate something i've validated with myself before... i mean the most i'd expect is a simple HI, MUSTA... but for a "nobody" to affirm my genuine happiness is pucha... katuwa talaga...

am i that transparent? did that smile really translate my heart's gladness?

thanks joey... thanks my angel... thank you Lord...

joey's friendster message reminded me again the bliss i share with my angel and that the subsequent lack of time and togetherness must not be allowed to affect the relationship we are building... hard but can be achieved when willed.

love described...

Woke up early today and feeling good... i had a couple of dreams... they were like segments running over a tv program where i am the host (perhaps, it is the subconscious thought of my return to Rated K)...

there was a part when i was doing a monologue on love... i couldn't exactly recall what i was saying in my dreams but i was sure it was something about it...

aha... it was on how we can measure OUR LOVE... of who we are... a pillar of truth from which i base my judgement... though not necessarily meaning that i live up to it... but i want to learn it...

anyway, here goes...

How is love described? It's in the Bible...

I Corinthians 13:4-7, TLB.

"Love is very patient and kind, never jealous or envious, never boastful or proud, never haughty or selfish or rude. Love does not demand its own way. It is not irritable or touchy. It does not hold grudges and will hardly even notice when others do it wrong. It is never glad about injustice, but rejoices whenever truth wins out. If you love someone you will be loyal to him no matter what the cost. You will always believe in him, always expect the best of him, and always stand your ground in defending him."

missing and missing more...

a month from now and it will be the -BER months already... my countdown continues til december 20...

and along with my waiting, i pray to Him for greater strength... a deeper sense of committment... a sincerer faith...

it is because i'm feeling it kick in... even in the presence of our daily chat, i am now starting to feel that we are geographically far apart... damn the rain... it makes me imagine scenes... if only i am wrapped around in your arms, maybe then i'd feel secure during the cold nights... or maybe yet, if we hadn't shared sweet nights in bed, then maybe i have nothing to miss at all except the superficial comfort of having my angel in my life... but i am very thankful you left me with those moments.

maybe, i'm being this emotional because i know that as days go by, your work is becoming more and more demanding and that you can't be with me during office hours... unlike before when even at work, we spend at least an hour or so of incessant chating...

nothing has changed though except for the time... you still are the same... you have this way of making me feel missed as well... that you are happy i am on-line...

every time we talk about our next dumaguete trip come yuletide, you impress me of an US... thank you angel...

i am missing you more...