an angel's riddance...

i am lifting this post from piper's (my bff) bloggie and as it says, it's been more than a year now since she composed this song for me and 'someone' who (i admit) did inspire me before... he is or was my 'angel'...

he was a crush and a love (at least for a period of time)... and we became real good friends (or so i trusted)...

just that sadly, we don't share the same wavelength and naturally, our sentiments and thoughts don't gel together...

we just don't have the chemistry...

and really, if i may be honest, i never imagined us going a long way... it was just not meant to be...

we were seasonal... not the fair weathered type... but the kind whose fire in the friendship dies easily... we're just fine when we see each other... doing dinner and coffee... but when we're apart, the emotional strings that connect us were hardly felt...

constant communication is not one of the gifts in our relationship...

(and for lack of a better way to put it) one of us always pulls away...

i won't deny... i am saddened that he swore he'd never text me again... he said 'he felt used'... i wonder how i ever made him feel 'i used him' for heaven's sake... in what way have i used him?

he accuses me of ignoring him now that my heart is overjoyed by lifetime...

i may be guilty... yes, perhaps i have ignored him... but is that any worst compared to him 'consistently' ignoring me? it isn't as if he constantly responds to me... at most times, i'd run after him and had to put up a charade just so i'd get his attention... how many times have i texted and received nothing from him... how many times have i called him and really, i felt that it was so much of an efort on his part to even speak to me... the absence of enthusiasm cannot be denied... demanding? i beg to disagree... that is painful... especially when you're told he feels exhausted when he hears my voice...

enough... i don't want to sound like i am bitter... yes, i'd love to keep him but if this is how he wants it, i won't cry a river over it... i can accept that i'd never hear from him again...

neither do i intend to create or entertain this as an issue... it is not...

just that when i was browsing piper's site and entries, i saw a picture of him... taken during a dinner we had with piper and her bf... and the entry's title was 'prue's and piper's boys'... well, i guess not anymore...

hence, this repost...

a music with the most apt words and the promise of the finest tune... but then again, destiny will never be able to breathe life into it... and so loses its essence... and the melody dies...

condolences to a love that never was...

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written on July 15, 2008, 7:39 pm for my bff, Prue

Verse 1
Kailangan ba ng dahilan kung bakit tayo nandito
Sino bang nagpilit na dito magkatagpo
Hindi inaasahang, lalalim ang pinagsamahan
Sa piling mo, hindi ako lalayo
Di man mapagbigyan….

Ref:
Ng langit….ang tayong dalawang habang buhay magkasama
Sa akin…Lang ang pagkakaibigan sana’y wag mabubura
Kung ito’y isang pelikula
Walang ending na makikita
Kung ikaw at ako’y isang storya…sana’y may ikwento pa.

Verse 2
Puwede bang pakinggan mo ang sinasabi ng puso ko
Matagal ko nang gustong ipakita na ikaw ang totoong
Dahilan na ako’y nakatanaw
Sa bukas, paglubog ng araw
Sa piling mo, di ako lalayo
Di man mapagbigyan…..

Ng langit….ang tayong dalawang habang buhay magkasama
Sa akin…Lang ang pagkakaibigan sana’y wag mabubura
Kung ito’y isang pelikula
Walang ending na makikita
Kung ikaw at ako’y isang storya…sana’y may ikwento pa.

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i accept and understand the riddance... i knew it was bound for bidding at some point in the journey...

so... farewell my angel...

new moon...

taylor lautner doesn't really strike my fancy but i have to admit, he does have that mysterious sexy aura... (taas ng standards ah! hahaha)



perfect for the role jacob black... so looking forward for new moon to creep into the night... for prue's last full show i mean... hehehe!