a perfect love?

after her period of bereavement, lorna tolentino says...

"WALANG PRFECT NA TAO.. PERO MERONG PERFECT NA PAGMAMAHAL..."

and prue very much agrees...

i am reminded too of one comment made by a colleague...

"ANONG MALI SA PAGMAMAHAL?"

"KUNG MAY NASASAKTAN, YUNG PANANAKIT ANG MALI... PERO HINDI KASALANAN ANG PAG-IBIG..."

then ther goes piper's baffling yet timely and poignant question...

"KUNG IKAW ANG DIYOS, ANONG IBIBIGAY MO KAY PRUE NGAYON?"

my answer, of course, is something or better yet, someone God already knows...

"SIYA..."

***

falling in love is easy given that it is a natural process for almost all of us and it truly seems the only possible and reasonable thing to do at a time you are single... but of course, some times, even when you're already committed, the heart doesn't stop... but that is a whole different story...

from the first minute we shared company, i had a familiar feeling, a fitting recognition of a former emotion ... a knowledge that a certain missing part of myself had been found and again, i'm suddenly whole...

when we met, we both had a history... but ours served to make even clearer that what we are sharing can turn out to be somethiing even more special...

it did take us both a while to trust these feelings... for my part, I had spent my life believing that couples who endows total trust, dedicated friendship, acceptance and communication is likely to succeed... i had never seen a successful relationship without it... it's constant in the recipe... and he feels the same way...

he is two years younger than i am but less wounded by a love-gone-wrong... comparatively more ideal than i am... has a sensitive heart to observe my whims... and, oh... i feel i will have so much fun with LIFE... AGAIN....

and so i look forward to happy days with HIM... AGAIN...

together as what? our hearts will tell in time...

for now, we'll make memories AGAIN...

P.S.

i think i already got my first Christmas present... it may even be the best!

what do i want? A REPOST!

gusto kong marinig ang bulong ng dagat... gusto kong payakap sa ihip ng hangin... gusto kong magpakalunod sa katahimikan ng isla... gusto kong dampian ng alon ang aking mga paa... gusto kong humimlay sa buhangin...

maaring mag-isa... pero mas gusto kong may naka-akay sa akin kundi man nakahawak din sa aking mga kamay... inaalayan... walang salita... tanging ngiti at gawa... ipina-a-alam sa akin na kahit anong mangyari... hindi ako tatandang malungkot... dahil hindi niya ako iiwan... umulan man o umaraw... bagyuhin man kami... dapuan man ako ng karamdaman... pumuti man ang lahat ng buhok ko... kumulubot man ang taba ko... lumaylay man ang balat ko... sa hirap at ginhawa... sabay kaming gigising para salubungin ang pagsikat ni haring araw... nagyayabang sa mundo... hindi niyo kami kayang paghiwalayin... hanggang kamatayan... hanggang sa kabilang buhay... pag-iisahin kami ng aming pag-ibig...

siya nawa...

at ako ngayo'y umiiyak...

***

this was how i felt on that heartrending thursday of june 12...

it still is what i want... the only difference is...

NOW... i shed no tears...

I JUST FIND MYSELF DAYDREAMING... AND DROWNING WITH HAPPY... SWEET... MEMORIES...
OF MEMORIES COMING BACK TO LIFE...

at siya nawa ulit!

flowers in december?

"THE ONE GUY WHO GIVES ME THE WORST PAIN IS THE ONE SAME GUY I FEEL MOST COMFORTABLE WITH AND IRONICALLY SAFEST.."
by prue

before I let you down again,
I just want to see you in your eyes.
I wouldn't have taken everything out on you,
I only thought you could understand.
they say every man goes blind in his heart,
and they say everybody steals somebody's heart away.
and I got nothing more to say about it
nothing more than you would me.
send me your flowers of your december,
send me your dreams of your candied wine.
I've got just one thing I can't give you...
just one more thing of mine
they say every man goes blind in his heart
and they say everybody steals somebody's heart away
and I've been wondering why you let me down
and I've been taking it all for granted

P.S.

may friendship not jade self-preservation... when the past relives in the present, all it should deserve is friendship... for my own heart's sake...