PRUE HALLIWEL ::: OBSERVER OF LIFE

i don't want to get to the end of my life and find that i have just lived the length of it... i want to also have lived the width of it as well... smiling when the sun rises... dreaming until the sun hides... but for now, i'm letting go... and this goodbye isn't just a new start... it confirms my submission to waiting... while searching...

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Sunday, September 30, 2007

dance prod shoot...

it's been a week since we had our production shoot for our official program dance... i've been wanting to post about it but never had the chance until now...

that saturday was really one hell of a toxic day... apart from the fact that the production assistant and the audioman were unforgiveably super late, the shoot itself was very demanding...but thanks to my dear kuya mel, i was able to pull it through... my sincerest gratitude as well to the cainta-nons who were very participative... the coordinator from the municipal hall and the market were just as supportive and accomodating...

with a crowd of at least 200, the prodshoot went very successful... kuya mel's choreograpy too was quick to learn... you'll see it soon on tv... and by then, i hope you'll be dancing with us... hehehe! wala lang... just a little something to perk up the show...

the vendors in the marketplace went crazy during the rehearsal... they were obviously having fun and excited to see themselves on national broadcast...


kuya mel's dance class was a bang... very very game... their adrenalin went sky high when we started playing the music... well, obviously wanting to look good on camera.... and that, i totally appreciate... thanks mga butihing madam ng cainta.
i think the participants even exceeded 200 because almost everybody in the plaza wanted to join... the cadets... the boy scouts... the choir members... the sepak takraw team... i so much enjoyed watching the firemen and the traffic enforcers dance... gaaaaahd.... they looked very cute girating in uniform... mr. traffic enforcer was even willing to be shot dancing while actually controlling the traffic flow... but the cutest... and i mean cutest... the cainta fire brigade... i even had a crush on one of the guys on top of the truck... yeah, that's him... the one in yellow jacket.. hahaha.... not only was he pogi and palangiti, he's so cute when he dances...in fact, the fire department seemed wanting to dance more but had to end it... the rain clouds were starting to build up...at the end of the day, my team went home very exhausted... but very fulfilled.

our visit to cainta was just the first stop... it will be a regular thing.. i mean, the dance prodshoot... i feel like having the team go around once a month to execute prodshoot of people doing the moves... who knows? i just might bump into my blog acquaintances... hehehe.

well, here's looking forward to those days... but for now, i'll keep it hanging for all of you until we launch the new look.

by the way, i'd like to commend the team... ryan, rowel, chelsea, my piglet, julia... you all made it possible... thanks very much for putting up with everything.... including me... hehehe... kuya unte and kuya edmond, the shots were great... considering that we didn't have breakfast and the very late lunch... yet, you managed... and to the rest of the technical team who despite the absence of one production assistant still delivered without complaints, kudos! special mention goes to chelsea by the way, who in the midst of kangaragan and my talak, always always always finds it in her heart to just understand my temper... to my kuya mel and his three gorgeous dancers who were not only patient... but went extra extra miles with their efforts... maraming maraming maraming salamat po... hanggang sa susunod na shoot!

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

do we ever really forget?

piglet made a remark today... "hay naku, si ____ na naman, naiinis na naman ako..."

two days ago, she said... "diyos ko naman, si ____ na naman... hindi mo na siya nakalimutan..."

she was referring to a former love... an affair from the past...

piper too one day of last week pointed out... "talaga namang na-segue si ____..." it is because out of the blue, in the middle of a conversation, i again referred to him...

since these remarks, i have actually been reflecting... asking myself... why do i keep mentioning his name? why have i always been injecting him in conversations? why do i continually bring him up? have i not forgotten about him?

DO WE EVER REALLY FORGET?

i am in a relationship now... and though we are presently oceans apart, i am happy with how things are between me and my angel... it isn't like i have no complaints... i do... maybe i just don't sweat about them since i'm trying to change... at least the way i handle relationships now... i have to admit, i've been a hard ass to deal with in the past... high maintenance as KD once described when we were in puerto galera...

then again, if i claim to be happy... how come i seem to be holding on to memories of the past... ok...ok... it isn't bad to treasure images but then, considering the remarks of my friends, i may have subconsciously reflected "holding on"... and that is quite a whole different story from "living in the present"...

i always believed that friends at most times see what we can't... and much as i am convinced i am over and done with my past love, i cannot deny what my friends have observed... now that they have mentioned it, i think it is true... he lives on in my head...

is it possible that even when we're sure that the heart has recovered... and accepted... still, after... say... hmmm... 3 years... despite the heart's forgiveness... the mind just continues to remember...

am i even making sense? shit! i don't know...

i guess i am bothered... i've made choices but some things just don't tie up... doesn't even make sense...

one thing i realized too, the problem with association... when you have associated one person to something or someone, you can't help but be reminded... how do i deal with it? i don't know... maybe the natural death hasn't completed its cycle...

maybe, the past hasn't reached its last breath...

no... i am changing the tone... IS IT MAYBE, THE PAST HASN'T REACHED ITS LAST BREATH? the last thing i want is to entertain "last breath" as frustration... neither as hope...

i have glorified ____ enough... one day, you'll be buried not just in the past... but in the depths of forgetfullness...

after all, it isn't always the heart that follows the mind... the mind too listens to the heart...

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

feeling sick? here's a spell...

seems like everybody's getting sick these days... it must be the weather... the irregular changes of warm and cold breeze causes our body to faintly adjust... and in effect, the headaches... the fever... the cold...

i was down with flu just last last week and the week after, i had the cold again... but surely, from where i am now, i love it when i get feverish... hahaha!

anyways, my blog acquaintance makoy kidded about asking for a potion to make him feel better... oh well, prue has one, i've my own version of the Book of Shadows afterall... jeez, it better work because i got it a liitle less than P5,000 three years ago...

by the way, what i will share really isn't a potion but a spell... i wouldn't really recommend to drink anything unless prescribed by the doctor...

it's the CELTIC STONE SPELL

this spell banishes frequent fever, cold and headaches... or all of it if it's that bad...

here's what you need...

white candle, 6-8" in height
match or lighter
a sharp piece of flint (a nail will do...)
a gray or white egg-shaped stone (i recommend the size be as big as palm...)
pure or tap water, 2 ft or 50 ml
red wine, 2 ft or 50 ml
a salt dispenser (with salt of course...)

the ritual has its best results if performed during the waning moon... okidoki... i am feeling a bit excited sharing these things with you guys... so to bleed on the matter, we have a waxing (gibbous) moon tonight... and since the waning phases will come after full moon... and from my research, we have a bright round round moon on the 26th which is by the way, tomorrow night already... (hmph! would enjoy gazing at the full moon... but will the rain clouds permit?) the waning phases of the moon starts on thursday...

but here's something you have to remember, recommendations on time and place to perform rituals are simply guides... but if you study wicca by heart, any potion...any spell... any chant may be cast any day under any circumstance... what makes it really effective is your devotion and belief... your heart makes it work... (da-da-da..dadada... verbal diarhhea...)

proceeding... here's how you will cast the spell...

1) light the candle saying:

LET THIS SICKNESS SHRINK WITH THIS LAMP/CANDLE
LET IT SHRINK WITH THE MOON
LET IT BE CAST AWAY WITH THIS STONE

2) using the flint or nail, scratch the shape of an oval on the surface of the stone then strike it through with an X-shaped cross... a big X...

3) rub the stone three times on the part of your body most relevant to your sickness or the part that gives you the most pain... forehead for headache... neck for fever... nose for cold... throat for cough... tummy for stomachache....etcetera... (as you can see, you can get out of the box with this spell... you just have to learn to play around spells sometimes...) while rubbing, chant this...

PLACE MY HEADACHE (or whatever it is...) IN THIS STONE
THAT I MAY HAVE NO CAUSE TO MOAN
UNTIL ITS FLESH BE SHRUNK TO BONE

then pour the water over the stone... afterwhich, hold the stone on your left hand... and with the right hand, hold up the wine saying...

I NAME YOU MY PAIN...

then pour the wine over the stone...

4) place the stone on the ground and then pour a circle of salt around it while reciting...

SHRINK AND WITHER
COME NOT HITHER

5) finally, cast the stone into the nearest local waterbed... a river... pond... hmmm... i am not sure if street canals will do...

and just so you understand the nature of the ritual, please allow me to explicate as i have understood from my book... the CELTIC STONE SPELL relies on the transference principle of sympathetic magic... it is the belief that an ailment or pain can be transferred from a person to an object which is symbolically placed on something where it cannot contaminate anyone... for this matter, a stone...

it follows the nature-loving celts who often cast sacred or magical objects into deep water...

we also employed the concealing and curative or natural healing properties of water to ensure that the transference is sealed... and the pain or sickness healed as well.

there you go makoy... i hope this helps... but please be guided, don't venture into something you are not fully prepared for... wicca is not for everyone...

hehehe... i am sure you weren't serious about it but what do you know, i did indulge...

(DISCLAIMER: i am only an avid fan of the series Charmed and Prue happens to be my fave... i know so little of the craft so please, i hope nobody is taking me TOO seriously with this stuff... Apilado just made a very serious comment...)

Monday, September 24, 2007

affordable grilled food...

lately, me and my station prodmates have been patrons of GRILL QUEEN in Tomas Morato, infront of Rembrandt Hotel...

it was actually Manny who brought us there last week and since then, i think we have been eating there almost every other night... too bad he wasn't around tonight... by the way, a fair warning... the service is kindah slow really... we even reached the point when we had to argue with manang...

but how can you refuse the invitation of a very scrumptious grilled meal at very friendly prices... everything goes with atchara and rice... like as if prue eats atchara... well, my friends gets my share of it... hahaha!

2 pcs barbecue @ P30
small embotido @ P31
big embotido @ P84
chicken barbecue @ P64
quarter chicken @ P84.00
tilapia @ P79
a whole rellenong bangus @ P 109
bangus steak @ P104
tuna belly @ P89
liempo or porkloin @ P59
pusit @ P79
t-bone steak @ P104 (90 grams) and P114 (100 grams)
the serving is actually generous... well, that is if you judge it by the viand but the rice, you really have to order for another scoop... yes... it is barely a cupful... hahaha... and knowing me, i'd go for at least 5 orders... taaaaakaaaaw!

the Grill Queen chain isn't actually new... but it is only now that i appreciate what it offers... it isn't ultra special but savory enough... if you're not too meticulous at the moment and all you want is good food to fill a hungry stomach, i recommend grill queen...

oh and by the way, should you drop by, please try their INIHAW NA TOKWA... it's the best...

Saturday, September 22, 2007

ur hotness, okabe...

will somebody please remind me to close my mouth... hahaha! Leandro Okabe is just awesome... no... that's an understatement... he's the hotness of all hotness...







feast on leandro...

been a busy week... terrible with the load of work in my sleeves...

and at times when i am all beat, Okabe's form of beauty is a relief... which is why ever since my friend sent these pictures to me, i've never trashed them... hehehe!

i'm sure piper and paige won't fiind this amusing.... hahaha.... well, let's just say sisters that this is my alter-ego being tempted with the mundane pleasures life brings... hehehe...

the abs... the chest... the hairs on his arms and legs... the treasure trail... and the look in his eyes... too teasing that it pierces through my veins... whhhheeeeeeeeeeeew!!! iiiinniiiiiit!!! hahaha.. to think we have a cold breeze now...

leo will appreciate this though.... hahaha... and a few new visitors...




Tuesday, September 18, 2007

personality disorder...

it wasn't like as if it's the first time i experienced an adrenalin shoot-up which manifested in an impulsive outburst of anger...

i have serious issues of anger management... i am poor at it... for someone who claims to be filled with love and wants to spread it, i am the worst kind... a false prophet...

feeling bad... and so i contemplated... i felt the urge to take a personality test... even if it was just on-line...i want to have an idea of who i am... what demons i am facing with myself...

i knew it had something to do with personality disorder...for sure, i have one..maybe even a number of it...

and there i was, choosing the most comprehensive on-line test... it says it cannot be interpreted as a professional diagnosis... but only a guide to knowing myself... hell yeah...

the general piece of information states that a personality disorder is basically a set of traits that combine to negatively affect your life... they have a wide range of causes and some are easier to treat than others... this test is set up to look for the ten recongized personality disorders which are Paranoid, Schizoid, Schizotypal, Antisocial, Borderline, Histrionic, Narcissistic, Avoidant, Dependent, and Obsessive-Compulsive.

i wonder... which of the ten am i...

Here are my results:

DisorderRating
Paranoid Personality Disorder:Low
Schizoid Personality Disorder:Low
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:Moderate
Antisocial Personality Disorder:Moderate
Borderline Personality Disorder:Very High
Histrionic Personality Disorder:High
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:High
Avoidant Personality Disorder:Moderate
Dependent Personality Disorder:High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:High

-- Take the Personality Disorder Test --
-- Personality Disorder Info --



there you are otep...

family... friends... angel... workmates... acquaintances... bloghoppers... if you want to know who this monster is, just click on it and it will be explained to you...

i am sorry...

my whole day was spent in meetings after meetings after meetings... monday is coherently a tight day with my station prodwork since we go on air on sundays...

day started with a production meeting with my anchor and over-all in charge of production... it turned out well actually and everything fell into place... thank God...

had a very lousy lunch in the office since i normally can't step out of the office between 12nn til about 3pm...at least not until Meryll has left the building... and to make best use of every minute, while having lunch, we held our regular story conference and post-mortem with the creative staff...

but even before i can finish my bowl of rice topping, i had to abort the meeting and set-up for my dance presentation with Meryll again... and damn, Kuya Mel almost gave me the nervous breakdown... it was 5 minutes to 2 but he still wasn't around... Kept on calling him on his mobile phone...

"para kang nakadroga... adik ka ba?!" sez kuya mel... what do i expect... i was like nagging him already... i understand though... he most probably doesn't have an idea how my life is with her...

anyway, thank God again... just as she went out of the studio... there was the sight of kuya mel...

"o ano, asan na... otep ano ba?! i have to leave na... dapat ready ka na eh"...

i think kuya mel even heard it...

and with kuya mel's 'paxencia na' charming line, she mellowed down and proceeded inside the room...

she liked the dance step... now that's a relief....

but that was just half of my day... i went back to the office to continue the meeting... wow... i think it went on for about 4 hours...

i don't know..maybe my mind was too tired... or maybe because i am half-hearted with what i'm doing... or simply impatient with the redundant question and answer portions... and the repeated "here's what you do...ganito gawin natin... o bakit ganyan... hindi na tayo natuto" litany... and i admit, i get tired with myself too... and i am very sure the staff is too... they probably even hate me for being the little elf (i am so tempted to bleed the "little elf" story... but i'd rather not...)

don't get me wrong.. i love the group... i may hate a few situations but as a team, i love them... or is it because i have learned to recognize new relationships and loose friendships with them? whatever that is, one thing's for sure.. they are now part of me...

i should mention too that we have managed to work out excellent episodes week after week... it wasn't always perfect... in fact. most times, it is too much lapsided but still... we manage to get it on air with flying colors...

to the staff, YOU JUST DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I FEEL FOR YOU... despite being a bitch myself, IN MY HEART... MAHAL KO KAYO!!!

it was during the next meeting that i again allowed myself to be eaten by anger... impulsively, i blurted out to one researcher what a pain in the ass she was... i was fine one minute... the next minute i was hollering.. insensitive of her feelings... i do not want to even recall the hurtful statements i have thrown at her... but surely, i have insulted her... lambasted even...

truthfully, she didn't deserve it... i was well-aware that she was giving it her best... i was even wrong to think she came in late for work... it is just that apparently, the segment assigned to her was more than difficult... of all, hers was the toughest to complete...

i felt bad... realy really bad at myself... no... i was actually really BAD... mali eh... and just writing this down makes me cry... i hate myself for being that way... ayoko na ng ganun eh... pangit...

she was doing naman her job... i saw it... i felt it... i observed it... she was and she is... she was just in a situation she doesn't want to be in perhaps... but because it's work, she'll have to endure it... but should i have added to the pressure? shouldn't i just have stopped for awhile...listened... evaluated the situation... and then politely ask everyone to bring our heads together and generate solutions to the problem?

mali ako... i have realized but only after i have already hurt somebody else's feelings... i can be better than be this way... i know i can... please... please..have more control over yourself otep...

I AM SORRY... REALLY REALLY... I AM SORRY...

help me Lord, i think i am turning out to be just what and who i hate... i don't want to be... i don't want to hurt others... please forgive me...

Thursday, September 13, 2007

love came for me...

my previous post was a bad follow-up to its prior entry...

i was declaring to the universe the beautiful day i was having... i loved that day... but sometimes, the devil steals the light out of me... just like today...

but just as the devil is cunning, my angels never leave me too... no matter what, they'll help me find a reason to smile back at the world...

yes... through music... i am relieved and feeling well... even if only for a moment...

i have long been trying to get a copy of the Splash theme song... Splash was the mermaid movie starred by Tom Hanks and Daryl Hannah by the way, just in case some have forgotten or have not seen yet... it is one of my favorite movies...


and since the first time i saw it, the song stayed in my head... but it was only now that i am triumphant in researching...

to give you a much better visual recall, it was played in the last sequence... daryl was back in the ocean as a mermaid... tom fell too and bumped his head which caused him to be unconcscious... daryl came to the rescue and kissed tom in the lips... like magic, tom woke up and can then breathe underwater like a mermaid... UP MUSIC... nanananana... tom and daryl swims hand in hand... wallowing in love...

vivid enough? hehehe!

never thought it was sung by Rita Coolidge... LOVE CAME FOR ME is the title... mushy... the heck... it's me...hahaha...

i dedicate this to us angel...



LOVE CAME FOR ME
by RITA COOLIDGE

One fine day
Love came for me
When love was rare
As love can be
I saw stars
Shining in clear blue skies
We flow together
Once and forever
Love came for me

One fine night
Love let us see
How far we'll go
How good we'll be
We saw a world
No one ever saw before
It was the world
Love can start
With the beat of a heart
Love came for me

I saw stars
Shining in clear blue skies
We flow together
Once and forever
Love came for me

One fine night
Love let us see
How far we'll go
How good we'll be
We saw a world
No one ever saw before
It was the world
Love can start
With the beat of a heart
Love came for me
Love came for me
Love came for me

Love came for me

P.S. sobra akong pinasaya nito... tagal kong hinanap ang kantang 'to eh... in fact, this is included in my THE DAY repertoire...

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

beautiful day...

what can be better than today?

there's a cold breeze outside...
which sometimes turns into rain...
but as soon as it stops, there's the fresh scent i so love...
at night, the wind is soft and christmassy...
i just find myself smiling...
it blows my hair... on my face...and on my arms...
i feel that it's my angel embracing me...
that's how it feels...
safe... one with him... at peace with the world...

and here i am, bothered with nothing...
only swamped with the many plans i have for christmas...

what can be better than today...

oh well, i am sure God has better days for me...
and today is just a sweet glimpse...
until then, I LOVE TODAY!!!

Monday, September 10, 2007

one love, one life...

spending some time with myslef here in starbucks... enjoyiing the breeze... with just my ipod, laptop, a pack of marlboro menthol and my white mocha...

i chanced upon again the song "one" from the album "the breakthrough"... i was just moved with the lyrics and its message...

more than once, i've felt this way... who doesn't want to be ONE with some body anyway? we all do...

here's the song...



ONE
MARY J. BLIGE
THE BREAKTHROUGH (2005)

Is it getting better
Or do you feel the same?
Will it make it easier on you now?
You got someone to blame

You say one love, one life (one life)
It's one need in the night
One love (one love), get to share it
Leaves you darling, if you don't care for it

Did I disappoint you?
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth?
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without

Well it's too late, tonight
To drag the past out into the light
We're one, but we're not the same
We get to carry each other
Carry each other
One...

Have you come here for forgiveness?
Have you come to raise the dead?
Have you come here to play Jesus?
To the lepers in your head

Well, did I ask too much, more than a lot?
You gave me nothing, now it's all I got
We're one, but we're not the same
Well we hurt each other
Then we do it again

You say
Love is a temple
Love is a higher law
Love is a temple
Love is the higher law
You ask me to enter
Well then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt

One love
One blood
One life
You got to do what you should
One life
With each other
Sisters and my
Brothers
One life
But we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other

One...
One love

Sunday, September 9, 2007

i will hurt again...

far too often, I have heard and even said it myself in the past that I am giving up on love... but the older I get... the more pain it invites... after my recuperation period, the more I come to realize... for better or for worse, love is my life... and my life is about love...

what a sad desparate world it will be for the person who hides themselves inside their mind guarding zealously their heart to keep it from getting broken... that will never be me...

yes, love is my weakness... but it is also my strength... (how timely... now paige knows what i meant...) love is the make or break of my life...

and yes too, love always finds a way... when it topples my world, it is still love that gets me back on my feet...

angel asks if i believe that love should hurt... and i said, "it can't be love if it doesn't hurt..."

i was so motivated to share my thoughts about the big L again...

love…..it can be an incredibly wonderful experience or it can be just another lousy 4-letter word.

if you love deeply, be ready to hurt deeply... the depths of pain will only equal the height of the joy...

the only person who can claim his heart has never been scarred is the same person who has never experienced those gut-wrenching long nights that seemed to never end.. or someone who as never felt the relief that morning had broken...

my heart tells me to be honest with him... just to prove a point... to shed more skin so i can bare my inner self...

angel now knows my last experience of pain...

I loved deeply with all my heart... and that was a risk... being blinded then, i foolishly told myself, the higher the risk, the greater the reward... great deal of stupidity... even up to now, my inner wounds continue to heal... you had to know angel... you need to know i am fragile...

i didn't expect he'd ask... will I love like that again? i didn't know what to say... or perhaps, i was afraid to let him know me too much...

maybe yes, maybe not... how can i ever tell... my mind says 'yes but i will be more careful'... but can we really tell our future actions which so depends on how hard we are struck...

maybe i will risk everything again for love... but i pray my man doesn't make me... i can't afford to risk everything again angel... i may but i can't anymore... if that was your way of knowing me more, might as well let you in real deep...

"it explains why i don't expect too much anymore... because it reduces the amount of risks... i will take what is offered... i will stll give more than what i receive... only this time, no more expectations... after all, what is there to expect when what you need is being given even without asking..."

"sabi mo ako angel mo..."

"yes, i mean that..."

"ikaw ang angel ko..."

you didn't know angel... but what you said made me cry... i find it in my heart to just beleive you...

now i know it wasn't just a term of endearment...

and yes, i will hurt again...

gusto mo ng AITS?

a a a... i tink i am converting from bulaceno to pampangeno...

wala na akong letter AITS (h)... A A A... e kasi binwisit ako ni boni... i tink mga 3 - 4 times namin dinaanan script niya... grabe... indi pa rin niya ako maku-a... indi niya maintiindi-an sinasabi ko...

aaaaay naku... so as usual... back to rated k na ako di ba? so eto na naman ang sakit ko... ang problema ko... ang dapat sana'y nawala o nabago ko na...

my anger management issue is back...

and of course, as usual... gamit ko ang sumalo ng inis at galit ko sa sitwasyon...

kung dati celfone ang binabato ko at binabasag... wow... eto ngayon... laptop kong mac na binili ko ng pagkama-al ma-al sa mac center ng rockwell ang victim...

parang si eugene domingo sa kokey ang aking powerbook... isa na siyang pampangueno... wala na siyang aits...

syempre, ang lakas ng pagppindot ko sa keys...natiyempo, nang umakyat ang dugo ko sa ulo ko, nasa letrang aits ako...ayuuuuun...lumipad si aits... bali... putol....sira!


aaaaaay naku... anggang kailan kaya ako ganito... siyempre.... tsoices...tsoices... brot myself into tis situation... aaaaay naku talaga...

inding indi ko makakalimutan si boni... actually, si boni din ata ang sani kung bakit ko binalibag ang clamsyel kong nokia before na ngayon ay si papa reggie na ang gumagamit dail siya nagpagawa... a a a ... ewan ko...

magkano ba ang srink? iba talaga ang temper ko pag nagre-rated k ako e...

bad week... bad trip... bwisit... mag-iatus muna kaya ako... ayoko magbukas ng lap kasi umiinit talaga ulo ko pag nakikita ko... not boni's fault...kasalanan ko... anger management...anger management...

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

feeling the season...

almost everyone I know loves Christmas… but still, there are quite a few who seem to find the season only a reminder of sadness, if not hate or just a cause of unworthy spendings…

you see, i’ve willingly spent a full P500 prepaid in my attempt to spread the spirit of Christmas… my traditional September 01 “Welcome the Yuletide” text message went out to kin and kith, to friends and loves, to workmates and mere acquaintances… even to those who hardly count as ‘anybody’…

some responded out of courtesy… others simply for the heck off… a few, despite returning a long message can’t help but be transparent with their ‘so what’ attitude…

the two friends I were with in Kozui (and while I was sending out the greetings…) were moved by my text but in a very appalling manner… One said “I hate Christmas”… the other made known his so called “Christmas Down Syndrome”…

oh well, the other may perhaps find it undeserving to sing “all I want for christmas is my two front teeth” when in fact, it’s all she has… no offense meant though… hahaha… the other bayot, I don’t know why… he so do not deserve to be labeled ‘gay’ if only for that…

worst… and it really really breaks my heart… a friend expressed how I actually caused her to cry… bravely said to me that I am wrong… there will be no reason to celebrate for as long as her Christmas is concerned…

that I understand… a bit… her dad just passed away a few months ago and it is never easy coping up especially when you’re daddy’s little girl…

i only hope that what I shared with her somehow made her feel a different light…

hers was perhaps a manifestation of the sad fact of life… we all go through bitter truths at some point in our lives… a condition and phase I just have to respect…

but when others stand ground in portraying the real-life grinch or scrooge, that is something I can’t fathom nor respect…

hell yeah… now, let me shift the mood of this entry…

there were those too who recognized the early blessings of the yuletide season… entities who bowed down to divine intervention… people who appreciates the sublime truth that whatever challenges comes our way, God’s love will always be at play…

they love Christmas… i love Christmas…

there is something about the magic and wonder of the season that is unmatched during the rest of the year… for me, it has always meant the gathering of family and friends… days filled with laughter… good conversation over bibingka and puto bungbong… savory meals…

the chance to extend everyone a warm moment of sharing… and not everything goes measured in sizes of gifts but in the amount of attention we give…

it is unlikely of me to claim this but really, you could take everything else about Christmas away from me… the ham… new clothes… the shopping… the carnival rides… the bonus pay… and yet, i will still love the yuletide season.

even the smallest parts of Christmas feel like magic… i love the way the christmas tree glows each year with white, green, red and yellow twinkle lights on it… and i love the way the malls smell when filled with all those decors… have you ever notice that? It has a distinct scent…

but here’s the best reason I love Christmas… it happens near the end of the year and it is my moment of reflection… my thanksgiving… I recollect all of the ways that I have been blessed during the year… I take time to express my gratitude to my friends… to my sisters… to my guardian angels… to whoever my love is at that time… I thank life and heaven for not ever forsaking me… come hell or high, Prue lives through each and passing day…

i love that Christmas reminds me to be grateful and to cherish the best things and people in my life.

this post is unforgivably long… forgive me people of the world…

this is not the result of boredom… perhaps putting insomnia into valuable use is more likely…

consider this a plea… a request… a favor… an attempt to influence your realizations…

for those whose hearts have lost its youth and declares they no longer feel the magic of parols… of reindeers… of the red, blue, yellow and green festival of colors… please consider a moment to contemplate…

i am sure last Christmas, you smiled when you received gifts… when you were embraced… when you were remembered…

recognize that... those are reasons why you too should love Christmas...

even our departed will celebrate with us in Heaven… if we’re sad, they will be too… they want nothing but happiness for us…

try singing or humming ‘The First Noel’ now… isn’t His Coming reason to celebrate?

and for those who, like me, never forgets… perhaps, by sharing ourselves… we can make this Yuletide Season a good one for everybody…

Merry… merry… merry… Merry Christmas!!!

Monday, September 3, 2007

finally fixed...

hahaha! and i am victorious...

10 minutes to 7 in the morning....here i am... still up and enduring a terrible headache... nevertheless, i rejoice!

this may be a small feat to most comp geeks or IT experts but hey, give me some credit... for somebody who's new to this kind of stuff, i did more than just well...

finally... finally... i've fixed my blog... you may not even notice the difference but i have atleast gotten rid of the borders which supposedly is embedded in the template...

oh well, it's like this... i couldn't get my sunrise banner in the header (which should be within the borderlines... remember the grid before?)... and so what i did was have the banner as picture in the page element of the template...

next problem, i have no more use for the headers since my blog title was embedded in my photoshopped sunrise pic... it will be too jarring and unbalanced to have another text title if only to utilize the header...

the only solution is to study the html config... now that's how i got my headache... hirap ah... i don''t even understand what those codes meant... i literally had to study how it is translated in form when uploaded... am i making sense? hahaha! actually hindi ko rin alam...

anyway, i am just happy... now to end this long and irrelevant-to-mankind kwento, all i did was take out the header grids by having it colored black... entonces, it blended with the background and so appears not to be there...

in fact, i have actually gotten rid as well of the breaker lines... do you notice it? hahaha!

basta... i really just wanted to bask at.... hmmmm... let's say, naisahan ko ang computer... ayaw niya yung pic, pwes kulayan nga kita border ka ng hindi ka makita na lang...

now i can sleep... the price i have to pay for being a blog addict... i only have 2 hours to sleep na lang... hahaha!

Sunday, September 2, 2007

until my blog is fixed...

you may be deceived but my blog is still unfixed... i just had to improvise so i can put up the sunrise banner...

it should be within the border but it doesn't open in the header... instead, the borders collapse... do u notice it?

i can't comment on my friend's recent posts... not just yet... i am so bothered... call me OA... say blog OC... anyway, i am still trying to figure out what went wrong with the html config...

and besides i've run out of of P.P. pics to cool my head... hehehe! before this site really turns out to be an official P.P. fan site, i've got to fix my banner issues... hahaha!

by the way witches and whitelighter, how's your Sunday going? pipol of the world, i hope your first day of the week is turning out pretty well...

and yes, i'm obsessed...

allow me to post full blast my obsession.... yes... obsession... LOL... here are images of P.P. that linger in my dreams... and hallucinations na rin... LOL










by the way... ey piper care to join me in pulling her hair? hahaha!


obsessed?

paige sez my blogsite is starting to look like a fan site... hehehe... oh well, so what... hahaha!

after all, who knows... P.P. and I may just work together in one show... hahaha! oh that will the day... gaaaahd... i'll do multi-tasking for free and i swear to the heavens, if that show pushes through and P.P., by graces, agrees to be the regular host... potah...potah... potah tlga!!!

i am guilty... i have an angel but i'm sill infatuated with somebody else... hahaha! long hair? the heck... pagbigyan naman na po kababawan ko... i just can't help it...






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